Under the clouds

Chapter 9

Zang Lanbai watched Fang Mu make such a move towards him, then carefully looked at his expression, then lowered his head to look at his lower abdomen, couldn't help laughing and said, "Where is it so small?"

Looking at that place, he raised his head with some dissatisfaction, Zang Lanbai got up directly, approached Fang Mu's body, and asked him repeatedly like a bully.

Fang Mu's mind was confused at first, and he couldn't hold back his answer to ask Zang Lanbai to let him go, so he quickly denied: "It's not small, it's not small...I was wrong..."

But Zang Lanbai's interest in teasing came up at the moment, so he was not willing to give up easily, and deliberately raised his brows and said: "Then it is not happy now, you have to boast."

Fang Mu blushed, racked his brains, and finally stumbled and said a few words: "Majestic, heroic, and towering."

Zang Lanbai, who was just laughing at first, couldn't hold back after Fang Mu said these words, he burst out laughing with a "puchi", and said on Fang Mu's body: "Fang Mu, you are so interesting. "

At that moment, Zang Lanbai really felt that Fang Mu was very special, different from everyone he had met before.

He felt that the corners of Fang Mu's shattered fragments were very smooth, smooth to the touch and not pungent.

Zang Lanbai bought the recommended medicine that his senior sister sent him. Fang Mu needs to drink a lot more medicine than before. With Fang Mu still insisting that he is not sick, Zang Lanbai is afraid to give him directly. He would secretly hide the medicine and not drink it.

Therefore, in order for Fang Mu to drink these medicines without anyone noticing, Zang Lanbai spent a lot of thought.

When Fang Mu began to notice a change in the taste of Zang Lanbai's cooking, his first reaction was to think that there was something wrong with his sense of taste, rather than suspecting that Zang Lanbai's cooking skills had declined.

Later one day, when Fang Mu drank the apple juice that tasted a bit weird again, he finally couldn't help asking: "Is this bottle of juice broken?"

Zang Lanbai also put on a special air and said: "It's real or not, let me have a taste."

Fang Mu handed it to him, Zang Lanbai took a sip without changing his face, and then replied calmly: "No, it still tastes like before. Are you tired of drinking it? It doesn't matter, we will change it to pineapple juice another day. "

Fang Mu had no choice but to endure the strange taste and drank it, feeling that he had too much to do, so he told Zang Lanbai after drinking it: "It's okay, you don't need to change anything else."

After feeding such strange food and juice for more than a month, Fang Mu gradually got used to it.

Zang Lanbai's lifestyle is too leisurely. Fang Mu lived this leisurely life with him, and his mood gradually stabilized. However, this may also be due to the blessing of drugs, and he seems to have improved.

When I went out with Zang Lanbai, the frequency of panic attacks began to decrease.

The temperature outside drops and winter is truly upon us.

When it was time for Fang Mu to go to the doctor, Zang Lanbai caught a cold because Fang Mu went out with him last time, so he was even more concerned after cooling down this time, and wrapped Fang Mu tightly in three layers. After the fact, he took people out.

Zang Lanbai waited for Fang Mu in the rest area of ​​the psychological diagnosis center as usual.

With the contact with Li Enshi during this period of time, Fang Mu has gradually become familiar with her, and is not as wary as before.

And Li Enshi was indeed very patient, and never brought Fang Mu any similar offense, or brought any aggressive feeling.

Fang Mu walked into the room and sat down at her desk.

Li Enshi prepared a glass of warm water for him as usual, and asked him softly, "Did you sleep well recently, did you have any dreams?"

Fang Mu shook his head, and then said: "I slept well, I just dreamed occasionally."

"Do you remember the content of the dream?"

Fang Mu frowned, as if he was remembering, but it seemed too challenging for him, so he finally replied, "I don't remember clearly."

"Mr. Fang, as you and I mentioned before, your memory is quite chaotic, and you only have fragmentary memories of the past two years, and it was blank in the past. You can't remember anything." Li Enshi paused here , and then said: "After a person has experienced a huge trauma, the brain may close some painful traumatic memories for self-protection. If you don't remember, it may be because you resist recalling yourself."

Li Enshi asked him again: "What about you, personally, do you want to get back the complete memory of the past, or just like that, throwing away the past and starting life again?"

Throw away the past and start living again?Does that count?Such chaotic, unclear thinking, unclear, can be regarded as a new life?

And Fang Mu sitting here, even though nothing happened yet, he still felt that there were many inconsistencies in Li Enshi's words. For example, even if Fang Mu escaped from the past, he might not be able to let him go in the past.

Fang Mu never had any right to choose, so after a long silence, he replied again: "I don't know, I don't know."

Although Li Enshi is more inclined to encourage Fang Mu to retrieve his memory, because in this way he can be complete, and the past memory is the cause of Fang Mu's disease. In theory, she thinks that only by knowing Fang Mu's past cause of disease can he treat the disease better, but in the face of such a full body. Fang Mu, who was full of avoidance and resistance, really couldn't do anything.

It is the most difficult for such patients to cooperate.

But fortunately Li Enshi was not in a hurry, she quickly changed the subject and said, "Then let's talk about your recent dream."

Speaking of this, Fang Mu's expression also changed a little. For the first time, he took the initiative to confide in Li Enshi or wanted to find something in Li Enshi.

He said: "Doctor, I actually have a dream that I often repeat recently, but I will forget it after waking up."

"Oh? Then how do you know that the dream is repeated."

"When you close your eyes, there will be a sense of familiarity. If you repeat the scene too many times, you can't remember the scene, but the familiarity that has been experienced many times will have an impression." Fang Mu replied.

At this time, Li Enshi raised her eyes to look at Fang Mu, and she asked, "Mr. Fang, do you want to try hypnosis? Just close your eyes and sleep for a while."

This decision seemed to have cost Fang Mu a lot of energy. After hesitating for almost 10 minutes, he slowly sat down on a lazy sofa in the room that looked very comfortable.

He smelled some kind of incense that Li Enshi had lit, and it smelled good. He guessed it was to help sleep.

Fang Mu usually didn't fall asleep so quickly, but as the lights in the room dimmed, he heard the crisp sound of the clock hands turning in the quiet room, and the next moment, he became unconscious.

But it's just drowsiness, not a state of complete sleep and unconsciousness.

For example, he could still hear the crisp sound of the pointer turning.

Li Enshi looked at Fang Mu who had closed her eyes, her breathing gradually stabilized, and she began to ask, "Fang Mu?"

Fang Mu didn't respond, and Li Enshi couldn't help frowning. It stands to reason that a person like Fang Mu would not fall asleep in such an unfamiliar environment.

Facing Fang Mu who didn't respond to her name, Li Enshi asked tentatively, "Can you hear me? What do you see now?"

Fang Mu's fingers trembled slightly, and after a long time, he replied weakly: "I'm in a piece of water."

Li Enshi lowered her eyes, and her gaze fell on Fang Mu's face, which seemed to be restless in sleep: "What color is the water?"

"black."

The overwhelming black water flooded Fang Mu's mouth and nose, making him unable to speak or see. Fang Mu began to struggle instinctively, and a strong sense of suffocation struck.

Li Enshi watched Fang Mu twitch unnaturally, as if trying to break free.

But some monster was bred in the black water. The monster grew thick tentacles, entangled Fang Mu's ankles and wrists, and invaded Fang Mu's body everywhere.

Li Enshi began to realize that something was wrong. Seeing Fang Mu's violent reaction but still unable to wake up, she called out twice: "Fang Mu! Fang Mu!?"

"What? Is something hurting you?"

"Hey... monster... um..." Fang Mu's face was covered with cold sweat, his hands and feet seemed to be fixed by something, no matter how hard he struggled, his hands and feet still stayed in the original position.

After Li Enshi noticed this, her expression gradually changed.

Fang Mu's struggle didn't last too long. It may be that the strong sense of suffocation made him unable to resist. He began to give up struggling like that, and let his body and consciousness continue to sink.

He completely fell into the black water, but after sinking for a long time, his body still seemed to be floating, as if he couldn't reach the bottom.

Just when Fang Mu thought he would sink like this, he gave up on himself, and stopped acting in order to avoid more pain and injury.

Suddenly something picked itself up.

"Cat."

Li Enshi watched Fang Mu's limbs limp after struggling, and opened his mouth, uttering two words in a somewhat hasty tone.

It's like a life-saving straw, but it doesn't seem to be too much.

Fang Mu seemed to fall into the black sea and was dragged into the abyss by those monsters, but every time he was about to give up, he was picked up again by a giant fluffy cat.

The cat's body was as huge as an island, and it didn't seem like it was fishing for Fang Mu to save him.

Fang Mu didn't know why it fished itself out, as if it was just to catch small fish, after fishing Fang Mu's petite body out of the water, he threw it on his back.

Fang Mu submerged on the furry cat's back, barely opened his eyes, and coughed out the black sewage that had choked into his body.

Li Enshi's voice seemed to come through layers of membranes, and she asked, "What kind of cat is it?"

"It's a big one." Fang Mu sank into the soft cat's fur. He lowered his head and saw that the pure white fur was stained by the sewage he coughed up.

He struggled to get up from the soft fluff, and looked forward: "The fur on the body is white, and the hair on the head is black."

Sometimes Fang Mu would slide down from the cat island and be caught by monsters. The cat scooped him up just for fun, and Fang Mu was also very afraid of the huge cat, fearing that he would treat himself as a small fish and eat him. lose yourself.

In order to prevent the big cat from eating him, Fang Mu handed over the treasured things that he was clutching tightly to the cat.

But what it was, Fang Mu didn't see clearly, because the cat ate it too quickly, Fang Mu only remembered that it was hard-won and very precious.

Sure enough, the very precious thing made the big cat open his mouth wide.

Fang Mu couldn't help but felt a burst of joy for the rest of his life, but this joy came suddenly. At first, Fang Mu thought that he had completely lost his will to survive in the infinite darkness.

But while lying on the back of the huge cat that looked like a white blanket, Fang Mu felt the faint sunshine on his face.

Fang Mu fell into this hopeless cycle in such a desperate way. When he fell into the black sea water, his heart was ashamed. live.