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Chapter 12 Change

"Didn't you have something to say to me?"

"let me see……"

Before Qin Anpei finished speaking, out of the corner of his eye, he saw the girl pointing at them, leading a man in his twenties.

"Brother, she is the one who bullies me."

When they walked over, Qin Anpei looked the man up and down, and glanced at the little girl contemptuously: "It's really easy to use the brother you recognize casually."

The man said: "You are the one who bullied my sister?!"

"She is still a soft girl, why talk about bullying her?"

Qin Anpei pursed her lips, her eyes rolled to the sky.

The man looked at Qin Anpei: "There is such a big gap between appearance and heart! You really can't judge by appearance!"

"I have no obligation to make any changes because of your idealistic me. I am me, no matter what you think or see, this is me."

Qin Anpei had a smile on his face, polite and distanced.

This time it was Zhang Yang who said, "If you don't understand the principles of human beings, please move to space, so as not to pollute the air of the earth."

After speaking, he took Qin Anpei to a nearby restaurant and picked a seat by the window.

Qin Anpei nodded, lowered his eyebrows, and lowered his head in self-reproach: "I'm so sorry, the family ugliness made you laugh."

"In exchange, I can also tell you about my family situation."

Zhang Yang put the flowers on the windowsill next to him and smiled lightly.

"My mother suffers from schizophrenia, and my father does the hardest and most tiring work on the construction site alone. Most of the time, I live in my second aunt's house. So when talking about parents, I feel more Strange. Now that I have grown up, I see a side that I couldn't see before, and I can understand them, but the strangeness that comes to my face after meeting has not faded at all..."

Qin Anpei was very surprised when she heard what she said.

In Qin Anpei's eyes, Zhang Yang is sober, free and easy, kind and magnanimous, gentle and romantic in his bones, with upright views and independent financial spirit.A woman like her should be a delicate young lady with an extraordinary background and a collection of thousands of favors, but she didn't expect it to be like this.

Qin Anpei couldn't help admiring her even more. She was also born in the mud, and she came out of the mud without being stained, and she was still clean; while he was struggling in the mud, changed his original intention, changed his dream, and finally failed to go ashore.

"Sister, I actually envy you."

Qin Anpei smiled wryly, opened his eyes weakly, and looked at Zhang Yang helplessly.

She sighed: "What I can get with all my strength, my sister can easily; what I put everything in to get in exchange, my sister has no effort at all; I struggled desperately, but I couldn't float to the surface It's also the third year of junior high school, my sister's third year of junior high school helps people struggling in the mud, and my third year of junior high school can't even get to the shore... Sister, I'm such a bad person..."

"I don't agree with what you said. Everyone has a unique way of living, and the result and process don't have to be uniform. I don't think I am very successful, because everyone's definition of success is different, and of course there is no need to deny it. In my eyes, I am not perfect, but I think she is excellent." Zhang Yang said, "No one can define the meaning of life, nor should it be defined. I am a painter, and the meaning of life is not necessarily to paint perfect painting. I suppose, you too."

Qin Anpei froze for a moment, the invisible pressure made her exhausted: "Sister, I understand what you said, and it even appeared in my novels, but I really can't do it."

"What do you mean by the 'water' you mentioned just now? Why do you think you're stuck in it? And why do you think you didn't come out?" Zhang Yang asked.

"The powerlessness of life..."

Qin Anpei rubbed his temples, thought for a moment, and answered Zhang Yang.

Zhang Yang said, "Do you want to confide in me?"

"Forget it, it's such a beautiful day, I don't want to infect you with bad emotions." Qin Anpei shook her head.

Zhang Yang said: "Since you are a confidant, why worry about this?"

Qin Anpei drooped her head and took a deep breath: "In the days when I was in school, I always felt that the sky was dark. The days when I woke up at five o'clock and went to bed at one o'clock were endless. The motivation to get up every morning was to have a holiday. Now that I am on holiday, I have an irregular schedule. Aimlessly wasting time, inexplicably anxious day after day, knowing what to do to become better, but never willing to put it into action. I gave up the dance I was most proud of, and habitually left everything to tomorrow. I hate it Bondage, but powerless after leaving the bondage. Always want to lie flat, but can't lie completely flat... Phew... terrible..."

Zhang Yang made a suggestion to her, asking her to raise a flower.And asked her to come to his house as a guest tomorrow morning, saying it was a surprise for her.

Today they ate something and went back early.

Qin Anpei stayed at home, reading the finished novel, anticipation and loss occupied her heart.

She recorded every bit of what happened with Zhang Yang recently, and wrote it in "Crossroads".Then I lay down aimlessly, but got up to watch the video because I couldn't sleep, and it lasted for several hours.

The next day Zhang Yang showed up downstairs at her house on time, and they went to Zhang Yang's house together.

As soon as you enter the door, you will be greeted with a delicate fragrance, which is a kind of elegant and unstyled fragrance.Then, what came into view was a floor-to-ceiling bookshelf filled with various small stones.

Before Qin Anpei opened his mouth, Zhang Yang introduced: "The fragrance is the smell of camellia. These stones are one of my collections that I brought back from various places."

Zhang Yang let Qin Anpei sit on the sofa, took out a tea set from the cabinet, and poured tea for Qin Anpei.And took out some snacks that had been prepared earlier, and chatted while eating.

"Try to focus on your own life, and focus on me. Short videos record the lives of others, and comparisons will only make you fall into internal friction." Zhang Yang said, asking a question, "What color shirt am I wearing today? ?”

Qin Anpei looked at Zhang Yang's shirt.She didn't answer, she didn't understand the purpose of Zhang Yang's question.

"Before I mentioned it, you didn't notice at all. In fact, our life doesn't have so many audiences. The burden and pressure you imagined are all given by yourself." Zhang Yang asked again, "Do you still remember the one who was wearing a sweater yesterday?" person?"

Qin Anpei nodded.

Zhang Yang said: "If I don't mention it, you won't remember it, right?"

Qin Anpei nodded again.

"We always habitually put too much pressure on ourselves, and attribute the unnecessary pressure to the fault of society and others. Many people think that drawing is difficult, but they don't know where it is difficult. No matter what to draw, the first step Always set the subject. You might as well let go of self-limitation and set yourself as the subject. Then summarize your general direction, and then gradually refine it to move in the direction you think is right. At the same time, you can do something you are interested in and contribute to your life. Color the painting."

As soon as the words were finished, Zhang Yang stood up and motioned for Qin Anpei to follow.

She walked to the refrigerator and opened the refrigerator door. There were many wishing bottles inside. The upper bottle contained water, and the lower bottle contained snow.

Zhang Yang motioned Qin Anpei to take out one to take a closer look.The latter took one casually and found that there were labels beside the bottles. After a closer look, he found that there were labels on each bottle.She took snow, and the year was marked on the wishing bottle label, which was last winter.

Qin Anpei raised her head and said her guess. Zhang Yang watched her without moving, with tacit approval and anticipation in his eyes.

Every time it snows, Zhang Yang will collect some clean ones and put them in bottles.So does rain, and the water in the refrigerator is rain.

Zhang Yang asked Qin Anpei to pick some and bring them back.

Qin Anpei was puzzled, these were all collected by Zhang Yang, wouldn't it be regrettable to take away the missing ones?

She raised her own doubts, and Zhang Yang smiled and handed her a wishing bottle: "No one or anything really belongs to us. Their participation will leave us more or less. This is what they have done in our lives." The proof that existed in the book is also the meaning of our encounter with him."

The past and the future do not belong to us, only the present moment is our real possession.

Zhang Yang took her into his bookstore, where there were all kinds of books. On the opposite side of the books were different flowers, including varieties of flowers, and small wild flowers picked by the roadside.

Qin Anpei watched as Zhang Yang took out a copy of "Puppy Qianqian" from the dazzling array of books, turned to a certain page of the book, handed it to her, and summarized the content of that page: "Prepare a blank book, Think of it as your "success diary". You have to record what you have done, at least five items a day. When you hesitate, always tell yourself 'this is the result'. This is the first step to solve the current problem step."

Qin Anpei was puzzled, and Zhang Yang answered her. She told her that if she really wanted to change the status quo, she would follow her strategy for 21 days.

She nodded, excited about the change but unable to contain her anxiety.

She was still thinking, Zhang Yang came over and handed her a notebook.She took it and opened it to see that it was one of the gold prizes in a certain painting competition.She shook her head hastily, held it in both hands and handed it to Zhang Yang: "Sister, this is too expensive, I can't take it."

"Since I can get it, it doesn't matter whether I get it or not. Whether I am good or not, successful or not, is entirely up to me to define, and I don't need others to prove it. I hope you can do the same, don't devalue yourself."

Hearing what Zhang Yang said, Qin Anpei reluctantly accepted.

My sister can trust me, so why should I look down on myself?Qin Anpei smiled to herself, muttering inwardly.

She took the initiative to follow Zhang Yang's footsteps and asked about her next plan.

Zhang Yang replied: "This is a long-term battle, and it is not something that can be changed just by saying it. Don't be impatient, do the first step first, and give yourself confidence."

Qin Anpei nodded, and followed Zhang Yang to stop in front of the floor-to-ceiling bookcase filled with stones.

Zhang Yang said to her: "Before I put them up, everyone thought that I picked up these 'waste' was of little significance. After putting them here, they all realized their self-worth. It has never been that these stones have changed. The mood is different and the meaning is different.”

Qin Anpei nodded and mustered up the courage to ask Zhang Yang for a stone.Zhang Yang agreed to her without hesitation, and she even saw a trace of relief in Zhang Yang's eyes.

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The author has something to say:

"Puppy Money" is really awesome! ! !

This is not changed yesterday

Today, I will update a short story "The Promise of Cypress Four Seasons"

It's a romance~