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Chapter 28 The Embrace Under the Moon

Qin Anpei stood there, dazed for a moment, then slowly walked forward and stood outside the French window.The moonlight reflected her shadow into the window, and by coincidence, it happened to fall on Zhang Yang.

She wished she could rush in and hug Zhang Yang right now, but it's not polite to go in without the owner's consent.

She couldn't do anything, she could only watch her suffer, and there was nothing she could do except feel distressed.

They seem to be isolated in two universes, they can approach but cannot embrace each other.

Qin Anpei had no choice but to stand outside the window and let the shadow of the moonlight hug her whom she loved for her.

"If I cannot hug you, let my shadow comfort you.

Either way, I will never let you feel sad alone. "

After an unknown amount of time, Zhang Yang raised his head, his red eyes half-opened, and he could faintly see the bloodshot eyes on her eyes and the wet tears on her face.

The two just looked at each other, their eyes facing each other, silent.

Some things don’t necessarily need to be said to let people know. People who love you will keep getting closer to the truest you through your every move.Break through barriers and embrace the truest you.

No one spoke, but they could see through each other's thoughts.

Seeing Zhang Yang supporting the bookcase, Qin Anpei stood up, took out a piece of paper from the bookcase, wrote down the words "Let's go", and held it up for her to read.

She was stunned for a moment, then turned and left.Before leaving, she noticed Zhang Yang's disappointed expression, her steps became faster and faster, and finally she started running.

She ran and muttered to herself: "Wait for me."

She ran into a convenience store as fast as she could, bought a bunch of Alpine candies, stuffed them into her sleeves, and returned the same way.

When she ran to the window, she was out of breath and her heart beat suddenly accelerated.

Zhang Yang still didn't move from the original position, and noticed the extra shadow under her feet, she looked up, and saw Qin Anpei was panting continuously, with half of the candy sticking out of the cuff.

Didn't she go?Why are you back again?

I don't know if it is affected by my mood, but my brain seems to move much slower than usual.Zhang Yang thought about these questions, and it took him a long time to think clearly.She didn't leave at all, she just went to buy sugar.

She was always by her side and never left.

At this moment, she has nothing to say, she just wants to hug the person in front of her, hug her, and never let go for the rest of her life.

Thinking about it, she ran out of the house, bypassed many obstacles, ran to Qin Anpei's side, and hugged her into her arms, worrying about everything, it was rare for her to be reckless once.

Qin Anpei stood where he was, he didn't expect Zhang Yang to come out, nor did he expect to be accepted.For a moment, her body trembled uncontrollably, and she didn't know where to put her panicked hands.

After hesitating again and again, she slowly raised her hand and hugged Zhang Yang, trying to restrain her trembling hand.

Time seemed to be frozen at this moment, Qin Anpei couldn't feel the passage of time, the busy traffic around him seemed to have disappeared, and even the moonlight only shone on them.

The heartbeats of the two gradually merged and jumped out of the same frequency.

Qin Anpei looked sideways at Zhang Yang, only to see that her eyes were closed, and the expression on her face was a relief and cherishment she had never seen before.

She obediently stepped forward again, closed her eyes, and a faint smile appeared on the corner of her mouth.

At that time, Zhang Yang's fragile and unbearable side was still echoing in her mind, and she was more and more eager to know what happened and comfort Zhang Yang.

Her eyelashes trembled faintly, her thin lips parted slightly, and she wanted to say something, but after a moment of hesitation, she finally fell silent, holding Zhang Yang's hand tightly.

The silence speaks.

It is not necessary to say something to comfort, sometimes it may be more powerful to accompany quietly.

After an unknown period of time, Zhang Yang's grip on her gradually loosened, and he let go of her gradually.Then turned around to leave.

"Sister, may I go in?"

After hearing this, Zhang Yang turned his head and walked towards Qin Anpei without saying a word.

Unexpectedly, someone grabbed Qin Anpei's wrist and led him into Zhang Yang's house.

The two sat on the sofa together, and neither of them spoke first.

Seeing this, Qin Anpei handed the candy to Zhang Yang again: "If life is too hard, just eat some candy."

Zhang Yang, who was sitting next to her, turned her head and looked at her when she heard the sound, her expression was one of her rare astonishment and emotion.

"My parents threw themselves into the river...they were afraid they would hurt me..."

As she spoke, Zhang Yang took her candy and played with it in her hands. When she said the last sentence, her movements stopped, and tears dripped uncontrollably, dripping on the candy.

Qin Anpei stayed where he was at a loss, not knowing how to comfort her for a moment.

She wanted to tell Zhang Yang that she would be fine, to cheer her up.But she is not her, and she has not experienced her experience, so how can she comfort her with a light word.

She also knew that feeling. When she fell into a daze and helplessness, other people's irrelevant comforts were disgusting, even though they all came with good intentions.

There is no real empathy in the world, and imposing the happiness you think on others is not necessarily a good deed.

After thinking about it, she took some paper from the napkin box on the table, wiped away the tears on her face, then held Zhang Yang's hand and stopped talking.

She wants to tell her with actions that at this moment, you are not alone, you still have me, fighting side by side with you.

"No matter what the situation is, I want to face everything with you."

Qin Anpei didn't say it, but Zhang Yang could feel it.

Some words that are not spoken will never be said in a lifetime, but they can be heard all the time.

Zhang Yang's mood gradually calmed down, and he took a deep breath, trying to make his voice sound calm: "My mother is a schizophrenic patient, sometimes for some reason, without any warning, she will suddenly become irritable, without any reason Beating and scolding me. In my opinion, she is not my real mother. Just yesterday, my dad said she was fine. She just recovered, afraid that I would be hurt by other personalities... and afraid that I would be hurt... She said she wasted So much money from me and my dad for treatment...she said she didn't take good care of me...missed my growth...she... threw herself into the river...again because of me..."

The more she talked, her voice couldn't help trembling, and the tears lingering in her eyes couldn't be held back any longer. She covered her face and cried bitterly, and she couldn't help crying.

Qin Anpei waited quietly, waiting for her to continue.He didn't say any words of comfort, but he didn't let go of the hand he held.

"My dad went to rescue her, but both of them drowned in the end...but...he can swim obviously...he did it to not drag me down...if I spend more time with him and get to know him more...not just for He pays for living expenses... maybe he won't...

He seldom accompanied me before... I always felt that he was not a competent father... He didn't give me anything except my living expenses... It seemed that he never thought that he was both a father and a mother, and he had to support the whole family... ...He needs to work so hard to treat my mother and give me enough love at the same time...but I didn't even spare some time to be with him..."

After more than ten minutes passed, Zhang Yang's mood stabilized. She looked at Qin Anpei and said to her, "Go to sleep, it's getting late."

"Are you tired?"

Qin Anpei asked.

Zhang Yang shook his head.

Qin Anpei smiled lightly: "I'm not sleepy either, I'll wait with you until dawn."

"……Um."

Zhang Yang was silent for a while, but still agreed.

Said to wait for dawn, but they actually sat and waited until the next day.

They talked a lot while waiting for dawn.

two o'clock in the morning...

They re-added each other's contact information, and the first sentence of the friend invitation was sent by Zhang Yang:

- Let me know again, I am the shadow part of the life of the famous original painter Zhang Yang, my name is Zhang Yueyue.

Just as Qin Anpei looked at her suspiciously, Zhang Yang explained: "That's my nickname. Between my lover and my lover, I hope there will be no generational separation between us. As for what you want to call..."

Zhang Yang stopped talking.

"Sister, what do you mean...you...you agree with my confession?!"

"A person can have countless heartbeats in his life, but there is only one choice. And you are the heartbeat that I firmly choose after careful consideration." Zhang Yang paused, "For me, you might as well call it another name."

"'Princess' is extremely noble to a country. It symbolizes unparalleled and irreplaceable. You are the princess in my heart and the most important person in my heart. So, I will call you 'Princess Yueyue' .”

Qin Anpei has been chasing Zhang Yang for nearly five years. This is not because she is moved by herself, but because she thinks she is worth it.

She smiled and said, "I belong to you."

"No. You don't belong to anyone except yourself." Zhang Yang shook his head, "You are you, the one I love."

The next day, Qin Anpei drew a cartoon with a clumsy artist and sent it to Zhang Yang.

She handed the manga to Zhang Yang and smiled at her: "Of course people will change. Tomorrow is not today, and this moment is not that moment. We are changing all the time. I can't guarantee that I will love you all my life, but at least I will love you at this moment." , sincerely and firmly choose to love you."

Zhang Yang smiled and took the plain-covered book, flipping through it page by page.Although the above paintings are a bit crude, each one is full of love.

Qin Anpei told a story, the penguin father and penguin mother went foraging, leaving the little penguin alone.The little penguin encountered a violent storm and finally disappeared.When he was dying, he remembered what the penguin father had said to it, tried his best to escape from the sky, dragged his injured body, and found his parents.

The penguin father knew that the little penguin liked flowers, so he said to it: "You like flowers that grow upwards, but you have never seen it try its best to root down until the huge roots are enough to support the vigorous and delicate flower buds. Flowers work so hard , I believe my baby will too."

At the end of the story, the little penguin grows up and becomes a mother. It tells the baby penguin what its father said to it: "We will not be by your side forever. When danger comes, you have to rely on your own strength to overcome difficulties. No At the last moment, you must never give up; at the last moment, you must defeat it. Human beings have a saying, "It depends on what you do."

Qin Anpei waited for Zhang Yang to finish watching, a smile appeared in his eyes, and he said with a smile: "The father of the penguin loves the little penguin so much, I don't think he will blame the little penguin for eating the food that belongs to him. The little penguin should hurry up." Grow up and build their nest with the little squirrels."

"The little penguin promised the little squirrel."

A warm breath spread in his ears, Zhang Yang's words seemed to have some faint smiles.

It took Qin Anpei a week to lead Zhang Yang out of the haze.

She originally wanted to make an official announcement, but after thinking about it, she chose to give up.

This time, I don't want her to make an official announcement, she just wants to hide the one she loves and leave her alone.