Reborn and returned to kindergarten as the boss

Chapter 84

Donner read the letter.

Almost without asking, he was already sure that the "Nana" mentioned in the letter was himself.

Only, not a daughter.

Donna is a boy.

Downer can only be a boy.

If he is just an outsider, seeing such a letter...

He may still be moved by the sacrifice and tolerance of this great mother.

But he is not an outsider, he is the party involved.

He is that kid.

After reading this letter, he has only one feeling——

He is an unwanted child.

He is not expected by the doctor, not by the grandmother, not by the master...

Even, it is not expected by my mother.

Because every word in the mother's letter expresses her love for her daughter.

Because my mother thought he was a girl, so she tried her best to give birth to him.

As a result, he failed his mother.

He is not worthy of the heavy love written by his mother on paper.

He even thought for the first time in his life—

How nice would it be if I were a girl?

No wonder grandma hid the letter until he dared to show it to him.

It's just that grandma guessed wrong.

The burden of this letter is too heavy.

Even if he is now 19 years old, he still can't bear such errors.

about your gender...

An error that is not expected by mom.

"Nana..." Grandma softly called his name, pulling his thoughts from the past in the letter back to reality.

She wiped his cheeks with her gentle hands, but what was left on the skin was wet water stains.

It was only when Tang Na saw his grandma's hand that he realized that he was crying.

He also realized that after reading this letter, he was so sad.

"Grandmother..." He didn't dare to look at grandma's face, and only asked in a crying voice, "Did mom see me after she gave birth?"

Feeling the child's trembling, the grandmother hugged him tightly, warming the child's body that had become cold in summer.

Grandma replied frankly: "She didn't make it to that time."

Donna lowered his eyes, tears kept falling.

Although his mother couldn't see him until she died, he was very sorry.

But at the same time, he was actually a little lucky.

Glad mom didn't see him, didn't know he was a boy.

At least in this way, she can die with fantasies about a girl, and won't have any resentment towards him as a boy.

It turns out that the despised gender is so painful to experience.

As a boy, Downer felt the despair of being unfairly treated for the first time.

The kind of people who know it's not their fault, and know that they should let themselves go...

The despair that can't be corrected, but can't be changed.

"Nana..." Seeing that the child hadn't made a sound for a long time, the grandmother was a little uneasy and called his name over and over again.

Donna raised his hand to wipe away his tears, and asked his grandmother with a smile, "Mother-in-law, how am I doing?"

"What performance?"

"Did my performance after birth disappoint you?"

"Nana has never disappointed my mother-in-law. Even if she did, my mother-in-law will not stop loving Nana because of it."

"Is there really unconditional love?"

"Yes! Mother-in-law loves Nana, and mother loves Nana."

"But..." Tang Na's fists trembled, and he suppressed certain emotions before he finished speaking, "Mom loves me, there are conditions."

Hearing these words, grandma's eyes trembled.

She understood what the child was thinking.

She personally forced Tang Qianhuan to abort the child.

Tang Qianhuan also chose to keep this child because of the master's miscalculation.

Her biggest worry about hiding the letter finally happened——

A delicate child like Tang Na still feels uneasy because of the details described in the letter.

It's just that things in the past did happen; the child's uneasiness did appear.

Adults who do "wrong" things cannot escape, and must face such results.

"Nana," the grandma continued to say to Donna after taking a deep breath, "I thought about how to explain this to you in the future so that you don't feel sad. But grandma finally decided to tell you the truth .Because only in this way, grandma's sincerity can be trusted."

"Um……"

"About your gender. Mom said in the letter that she didn't care if you were a boy or a girl. It was the master who hinted at her, and she chose to measure. If the master said it was a boy, she would let it take its course and keep you. But the master said it was a girl , she must find another reason to keep you with peace of mind."

"However, she only wrote this letter to her daughter, not her son. Shouldn't she expect it to be from her son?"

"As a girl, she understands how much love and courage a girl needs to survive. So, I guess she didn't dare to have any hesitation about your gender in the letter... Of course, the final result is indeed regrettable, this letter , became addressed to a 'daughter', not to a 'son'."

"..." Tang Na pursed his lips, but did not respond.

"And grandma must admit that the letter is correct. One is her own daughter who has lived with her for nearly 20 years. The other is an embryo that may take my daughter's life and has not yet met me. No matter how much At that time, I would choose my daughter every time, not the child in her womb."

"..." Tang Na bit his lips deeper and deeper, almost biting blood.

"However, it would be too cruel to let the current me choose!"

"..."

Grandma's tone was brisk, but Tang Na could vaguely hear the deep meaning in the words.

Tears welled up in his eyes again, and this time he couldn't hold back at all.

The child looked up at grandma's face, and found that although she had been speaking calmly, her eyes were wet with tears before she knew it.

"If the current grandma were to travel back in time and make a new choice, it would be too difficult, too difficult. One is the daughter whose Yin and Yang have separated for almost six years, and the other is the lovely grandson who has been dependent on each other for almost six years. How should I choose? How do I choose..."

Grandma shook her head, and hot tears hit Tang Na's forehead, "There may be several times, I can't help but choose Nana, and then, seeing my daughter..."

"Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo..." donna buried his face in grandma's arms, sobbing, not to let grandma speak any further.

It is precisely because of my grandmother's frank admission of mistakes, past regrets, and past "mistakes"...

That's why her heart-wrenching struggles now turned into a fishhook, piercing people's hearts with joy and intolerance.

Grandma really loved him.

This is true, and Donna will no longer doubt it.

The resentment before meeting him was true.

But after meeting him, the laughter and hugs every day are more real than resentment.

"Nana. My mother-in-law couldn't tell you how much your mother loves you. I was afraid that you would misunderstand your mother, so I hid this letter. The reason why your mother-in-law changed your name to 'Na' is because the town Mr. Li told me that the word is 'na' for 'acceptance'.

"Grandma hopes that you accept your imperfect birth, and grow into the most perfect you. Every "imperfection" of you is part of the "perfect you". "Imperfect Nana", Grandma , For mothers, they are the most 'perfect'."

Grandma must have thought about these words several times over the past few years.

Even, she may have gone to the literate "Mr." and revised every word several times.

Otherwise, grandma who obviously didn't go to school...

How can you say these words so sharply, every sentence hits the heart?

Tang Na felt his heart was tied to the roller coaster.

When he first found this letter, his roller coaster kept falling, and he was short of breath.

Knowing that the letter came from his mother, he went up the roller coaster for a while, and his mood improved with the bear hug of the wind.

But when he opened the letter, his roller coaster crashed completely.

His roller coaster went on and on and on and on.

Even if you break the ground, you must continue to rush down.

It seemed to take him to the eternal hell.

Let him rest in peace for the rest of his life.

However, his roller coaster suddenly stopped.

It stopped in a state of being half sunk in the ground.

He turned his head and saw that it was his grandmother who was pulling his roller coaster from behind.

Grandma used all her strength to pull the roller coaster out and save him.

Grandma said: Yes, your roller coaster really fell to the ground.

But, grandma is saving you.

Don't be afraid, grandma is saving you.

Grandma will always do her best to save you.

"Nana, my mother-in-law hopes that my mother-in-law can make her heart clear."

"Yes..." Tang Na sobbed, loving his grandmother's embrace, "Grandma made it very clear. Nana knows, Nana already knows!"

"That's fine, that's fine..."

"Mother-in-law really worked hard." Tang Na laughed while crying, "It would be fine if these things didn't happen."

"If..." Grandma also laughed with tears in her eyes, "Grandma really thought about 'if'!"

"What if the mother-in-law thinks about 'what if'?"

"If, I can not prevent Tang Qianhuan from giving birth to you, then Nana will not be so sad when she asks now. If, I can tell Tang Qianhuan that you are a boy, then the letter she left for you will definitely be It will be addressed to 'the son'."

Tang Na looked at grandma and sniffled, "Is grandma so sure? Could it be that mom knows I'm a boy and won't choose to knock me out?"

"No." Grandma was very sure, "That's my daughter. I know it better than anyone else."

After finishing speaking, the old woman hugged the child again and patted him on the back.

Just like how she coaxed her daughter when she was young, just like how she coaxed her grandson all the time.

"Nana," she said, "Grandma has regretted many things in her life. The only thing she has never regretted is having you.

"If the day you were born was a good day for me, then you must be the best good gift given to me by God."

……

Grandma hugged Tang Na, weeping silently until midnight, before she fell asleep drowsily.

Tang Na couldn't fall asleep, so he sneaked out of her arms and returned to his room.

He is lying on the bed.

He tossed and turned.

He read the letter over and over several times.

He wants to find evidence that his mother loves him.

He wanted to find evidence that his mother loved "him as a boy."

As far as finding it, Donna found it.

Indeed, before the master hinted, between the lines, the mother wanted to keep the child indiscriminately.

But if he didn't find it, Donald didn't find it either.

The hint of the master is the dividing line of the Tao.After that, the deep love between the lines of the mother was given to a daughter who did not exist.

Mom repeatedly emphasized how "Nana" should live, how "Nana" should be happy...

But this eccentricity was not given to him, not even a little bit.

Mom loves him, it's true.

It's true that mothers prefer girls.

Donna felt his roller coaster being dragged out by his grandmother.

Grandma was getting old and exhausted and couldn't do much more.

Donner had to get off the roller coaster himself.

But he was tied up and couldn't move at all.

At this moment, the engine of the roller coaster started again.

Donna was scared, and so was Granny.

The roller coaster seems to continue to lose control with its heart, and thus to the end of the same death.

He can't do anything.

Grandma can't do anything.

They could only watch helplessly as the end came.

Has the mother never doubted the gender of the child?

Tang Na thought aggrievedly.

Didn't he even think a little bit that the master might be wrong and he might be a boy?

Do you just expect it to be a girl?

Why does it have to be a girl?

Suddenly, the roller coaster moved.

Donner's eyes widened, and he realized that the roller coaster continued to lose control in the horizontal direction.

Because grandma had already pulled the roller coaster out, it didn't go further underground.

But it was still on a rampage, on the horizontal plane, in a direction he wasn't sure about.

Tang Na's heart was beating wildly, and he suddenly discovered something.

He stared at the letter, the last words written by his mother.

——"Mom is what others call a lunatic, and what others call a fool."

——"Don't be a lunatic, and don't be a fool. Because living like a mother is very tiring."

The reason why it has to be a girl...

It's because my mother is a girl!

Grandma's words became a windbreaker, protecting Donna's heart.

Let Donner not be so hurt during the roller coaster rampage.

As Grandma said, it was just an embryo.

Mom hadn't seen it, hadn't developed feelings for it.Whether it is a boy or a girl, the feeling of it should be the same.

But it must be a girl, because...

That's what happened to my mother.

The mother may not realize that the projection of her own life has unconsciously been reflected on this daughter named "Nana".

Because I am a girl, I can understand girls.Because she is a girl, my mother can tell her so many things in her heart.

Donner saw his roller coaster and suddenly rushed up a section of track.

That orbit is upward, always upward, straight into the sky, as if there is no end.

Tang Na's mood was as brisk as it was about to explode.

He felt his roller coaster going in a more stable and brighter direction.

Along the way, he saw the construction information of this ascending track——

Here's a track from nearly six years ago.

At that time, there was a thin woman named Tang Qianhuan, who struggled to move the iron bit by bit...

Then, bit by bit, the sky-reaching track was welded.

So that he will not fall six years later.

So that six years later, he would no longer be on a rampage.

Let him no longer be at a loss six years later.

Let him go straight to the sky six years later, and the happiness in his heart keeps rising.

For the first time, Donald understood the letter.

He also met his mother for the first time.

Perhaps it was because of thinking through all this that Tang Na let go of all the psychological burdens.

The child finally fell asleep in a daze.

He seemed to be having a dream.

In the dream, his roller coaster was still rushing into the sky, and he didn't know how long it would take.

On the roller coaster, his heart turned into a child, exactly what he looks like now.

Although he didn't know if the roller coaster would stop, Donna wasn't afraid at all.

Because, this track was built by my mother.

Mom loves him, he'll never doubt it.

When the roller coaster broke through the barrier of the last layer of clouds, it finally stopped.

Downer got out of the car and saw an angel standing on the clouds.

That angel is beautiful.

Dressed in white, with two clean wings.

She is thin and has quiet features.

She looked at him and smiled softly.

"Mom!" Donna rushed over, but the angel also retreated.

Tang Na accelerated to rush forward, and Angel also accelerated to retreat.

Mom - I know it's you -

I know you, your name is Tang Qianhuan!I know you--

mother--

Tang Qianhuan——

He panicked and kept running.

But I can't get closer to her.

She was still smiling, unhurried.

He stopped suddenly and stopped chasing.

He found that although he couldn't get close to her.

But she was never farther away.

She is always there, separated by a fixed distance.

Always be there for him.

Donna called out to the angel, "Mom, this is the first time I've met you! But I'm so happy!"

The angel looked at him but smiled silently.

"Because no one has ever understood that letter, but I understand it. I didn't know you before, but I understand your voice before anyone who knows you!"

The angel smiled, and suddenly took a step forward.

She knelt down and hugged him tightly.

This is his first hug with his mother.

He stood on tiptoe and hugged his mother with all his strength.

He felt his mother place a kiss on his forehead.

He heard his mother whisper softly.

Her ethereal voice reverberates in the sky, the volume is not loud, but it can make the whole sky hear her voice——

Nana can make any decision.

There will always be a mother in this world who loves you unconditionally.