The Utopia of the Wastewood Prince

Chapter 21

21

Winter is not a season suitable for outdoor sports, especially in Beijing.

Wrapped in a thick down jacket, Zhang Muqing walked slowly to the bookstore.He didn't dare to go out before, but it was only recently that he gradually became willing to take a walk outside, most of the time he came to this bookstore and picked up a few comic books to read for an afternoon.This kind of beautiful life, which he had never expected before, suddenly came true after suffering a major blow.

I have to say that the biggest thing that life brings to you is neither surprise nor regret, but embarrassment.

"Boss." Zhang Muqing said politely, but timidly, "Read a book."

"Oh." The boss drooped his eyes, as if he hadn't woken up.He usually would not leave his seat, but today, for the first time, he stood up from his seat and said to Zhang Muqing: "Someone left a note for you."

Zhang Muqing opened her eyes and stared blankly at the boss.

"The one with long hair." The boss made a gesture, and then muttered in a low voice, "How old is it to write small notes, old-fashioned."

Zhang Muqing didn't explain the reason, he carefully reached out to take the note in the boss's hand, just as his fingertip touched it, the note was taken away with a "swish".Zhang Muqing looked up in surprise, and saw that the boss was still looking at him listlessly.Zhang Muqing was very afraid of being stared at like this, which would make him very uneasy, so she lowered her head nervously, not daring to face the boss.

The boss laughed "puchi", said something in Japanese to Zhang Muqing, and sat down after speaking in a lazy tone.

Zhang Muqing was so dumbfounded that she didn't even dare to blink her eyes.He just came from the cold wind, the tip of his nose was red from the cold, he looked a little pitiful and not so confident.But he tried his best to smile, the corners of his mouth were not wide, and he stammered, "Thank you, Gin-san."

Live in the way you think is beautiful.He said.

At nine o'clock in the evening, it was already very quiet in a small park not far from Zhang Muqing's home.Few people are willing to run out to drink the northwest wind in the cold winter night, only the square dancing aunt is still persisting.

Zhang Muqing was sitting alone on the bench, fiddling with that little piece of paper in her hands. After fiddling with it for an unknown amount of time, the thin piece of paper had become soft and wrinkled.His head was always hanging down habitually, and he heard footsteps in his ears. He thought it was someone passing by, but when those feet stopped in his sight, he realized it was not.

What catches the eye is a pair of black brogue shoes, half-heeled, and then a pair of straight and slender legs. The same black socks extend beyond the knees. The plaid pleated skirt will cover a little of the thighs, with a section exposed in the middle White meat.

Zhang Muqing raised her head completely, and saw a long-haired girl wearing JK in the dark. Although her facial features were not clear, she could feel the beauty.

No, no, too tall, not tall like ordinary girls.

"You, you are..." Zhang Muqing said in disbelief, "V5 is big!"

Shen Yi hummed, and a cloud of white mist appeared in front of him.It was too cold, he only wore a dark blue woolen overcoat, and he was so beautiful and coquettish that he was actually freezing to death.

"You...you..." Zhang Muqing didn't come out in shock, she couldn't speak a complete sentence.

"What are you?" Shen Yi turned around and sat beside Zhang Muqing, raised his eyebrows and looked at Zhang Muqing, "Have you never seen it or worn it? Why are you so surprised?"

"Of course...of course not." Zhang Muqing shrank back in fear when Shen Yi said this, "I'm just a little surprised, you..." He didn't dare to say directly to Shen Yi, "Why are you also a women's dress student?" Dude", because at first he just thought it was just a dead house like him, and the other's long hair didn't make him want to be biased at all.Or, he feels that such an identity is very private and secretive. He has been severely ridiculed and hurt by others because of such a hobby, so he is unwilling to imagine other people as homosexuals. This seems to have become a scar on him. .

"I started wearing women's clothing when I was in college." Shen Yi said to himself, "At first it was only because of school performances that I needed someone to dress up as a girl. Although I'm not short, my physique is still thinner than those ghosts , they felt that the gentle and reserved temperament of oriental people is more suitable for a female role, so they pushed me up. It was the first time I wore a skirt, and I felt very resistant at first, but when I actually put it on, I felt that it didn’t seem to be It’s so difficult.” He held his hands together as he spoke, took a deep breath, rubbed them together, and continued, “Later it became a hobby of mine, I can’t say whether I like it or not, but I think When I did this, I was fighting against myself and my native family. My school days were very depressing, like I had no puberty at all. I can’t be willful or secondary. I have my own Hobbies, like reading manga, like paper figures, but these are not allowed, the first priority of a student is to study hard. So when I left the family, I tried my best to do something special, Doing things that you would never do before, this may be the second year of senior middle school."

He started to grow long hair, bought all kinds of skirts, and would wear them to comic exhibitions, but he himself may not feel happy.For Shen Yi, women's clothing is not because he has a vague understanding of his gender, or for any other reason. He is venting his dissatisfaction with his family.

"Then what about you?" Shen Yi turned to Zhang Muqing and asked, "Don't tell me that a friend from the animation club forced you to wear it, I'll believe you."

Zhang Muqing's surprise just now has gradually subsided. He said: "It was in high school. I don't have many friends in real life. I guess they are introverted people who hate three-dimensional humans. I met some gay friends online, and then we Went to Manzhan Mianji. There was a LO girl who went with me. I was curious, so I asked her some questions, and then..."

Although Huazhimaru confirmed with Shen Yi that the person in front of him is indeed a straight man, he still couldn't help asking: "Then do you think you have a sexual orientation deviation, a sexual fetish deviation, or a wrong gender perception that makes you like to wear women's clothing? After all A boy in his teens, but anything can happen."

"None." Zhang Muqing said with certainty, "I just like it very much, just like some people like to play with figurines, some people like to read comics, and some people like to play cosplay. I just like beautiful skirts very much. , I like makeup, and I also like myself in a beautiful dress. At the same time, I am sure that I like girls."

Shen Yi smiled and said, "You are quite open, boy."

This kind of calmness and rationality is very different from Zhang Muqing's submissive image. At this moment, he seems to be different. When talking about his hobbies, his whole person is shining.It's a pity that the light was only for a moment, and it soon dimmed with Zhang Muqing's voice. "The day Xi Jiujiu took pictures of me, I went to the club to record house dances." He sighed, "If I had known, I wouldn't have gone..."

"But it's not your fault, it's her fault." Shen Yi said, "You didn't murder, set fire, rape, or plunder. It's just a small hobby. No one has the right to despise you."

Zhang Muqing said: "I used to think that people can live in a small world that doesn't care about the outside world. It wasn't until this time that I realized that it is actually not possible. When I was walking in school, I was laughed at by my classmates. They said I It's perverted, sissy GAY, that feeling is really uncomfortable, I even wavered to myself, so that I don't want to go to school anymore, I don't want to see them again... I just started my freshman year, maybe I still have the chance to retake the college entrance examination Once, go to a school where no one knows me, as long as I don’t wear it anymore and I don’t get caught, maybe I can start over.” He held back a lot of words and told someone who could understand himself.Apparently Shen Yi did. From the time they talked in the bookstore, Zhang Muqing knew that Shen Yi was different.

"You can escape for a while, but can you escape for a lifetime?" Shen Yi spoke a little angrily.He took out his mobile phone from his pocket and clicked on an audio, which was recorded when he talked with Xi Jiujiu that day.Through the sound through the screen, it seems that Xi Jiujiu can be seen burning with anger.

Zhang Muqing listened to all the recordings very calmly, and asked, "Did she look for you?"

Shen Yi said: "Otherwise? I have free time to look for her?"

Zhang Muqing said: "Xi Jiujiu is very... How should I put it, very popular in the class? I may not be accurate, it is the kind of positive and very vocal, which is the opposite of me. "

Shen Yi said contemptuously: "She's called a dramatist, she's all acting."

"Really?" Zhang Muqing twitched the corners of her mouth and continued, "Actually, I don't dare to provoke her, after all, she has a good relationship with many people. After I found out that she plagiarized, I told her in private, I hope she can Correction. At that time the game was not over yet, everything had a chance, but she didn't care and told me not to meddle. Now I think, if I really didn't meddle, what would be the situation now? I really do It's... where does justice come from?" He was a little self-deprecating, his voice still very small, "I mustered up the courage to post a post exposing her, I thought she was attacking me on the Internet at most, but I didn't expect that she would involve It’s my third dimension. It turns out that I choose to be a good person who I think is righteous, and I have to pay such a painful price.”

Shen Yi didn't know what to say to comfort Zhang Muqing, because this was a problem he couldn't figure out.Why are good people always weak and bad people always strong?What happened to Zhang Muqing made him face too much cruelty at this age.

The choice of hobbies, the choice of three views, the choice of self...too many problems, all piled up in front of Zhang Muqing, crushing him like a storm, making him just want to escape, not willing to face it.

Shen Yi let out a long sigh, and asked quickly: "You said you wanted to record house dance, what song?"

Zhang Muqing didn't expect him to say such a sentence, so she replied, "It's "My World Has Fallen in Love"."

"This one." Shen Yi searched on his phone, clicked on the music, and the cheerful melody came out.Shen Yi got up and stood in front of Zhang Muqing, swaying her body following the rhythm.

There were too many things that surprised Zhang Muqing that night. He never thought that the mighty and domineering V5 adult in the cute circle would stand in front of him and dance "My World Has Fallen in Love" in JK, and he danced very well. good.There is an open area just one road away from them. Several aunts have been dancing in the square since Zhang Muqing came here. Two different kinds of music came, two completely different worlds, and they all stubbornly refused. back down.

The aunts looked over, and seemed to think that Shen Yi's music was taking them out of rhythm. Shen Yi said, "What are you looking at, I haven't seen a big guy in women's clothing!" There was a disgusted expression on his face, and he hurried away like hiding from the plague.

The music of the square dance disappeared, and the air was filled with sweet notes.

Shen Yi pulled Zhang Muqing, who was temporarily disconnected due to an unexpected situation, up from the chair and jumped with him.Zhang Muqing was stiff and stumbling, Shen Yi said, "How do you usually dance?"

"Hide in the corner and jump." Zhang Muqing replied.

Shen Yi said: "There is no one now." There is indeed no one, but this park is not far from the road, who knows if a passerby will suddenly come out.Zhang Muqing couldn't let go, her hand was held hostage by Shen Yi, so she could only follow suit.Gradually, he seemed to have found a little feeling, and his emotions began to enter the music, so he no longer needed Shen Yi to lead him, and he could dance coherently.

It can be seen that Zhang Muqing's dance moves are very proficient, but he is too nervous and scared, he dare not.However, Shen Yi's enthusiasm infected him, making him forget his troubles and sorrows, and also forget that this is outside, a place full of puzzled eyes from the third dimension anytime and anywhere.

It turns out that when you are serious about doing what you like, you are fearless.

After the song ended, Shen Yi took a breath and said with a smile, "How is it? Isn't it that difficult?"

Zhang Muqing took a breath, and his expression became much more relaxed. He also smiled and said, "It seems... yes."

"Mu, listen." Shen Yi said, "There is no distinction between high and low in hobbies. This is the truth that everyone can tell. What I want to tell you is that the right to be a human being is based on one's own knowledge and knowledge. It is what you believe in, not what others give you. You can choose to escape, or you have to suspend school if you transfer to another school. Waiting for people to forget this matter slowly, but you can’t forget it yourself. This will haunt you for the rest of your life. Shadow, you will lose your most precious thing, do you understand?"

Zhang Muqing looked at Shen Yi, trying hard to digest his words.

"The thing you like to do the most, the dream you want to realize the most, do you have to wait until you are seventy or eighty?" Shen Yi said, "I can tell you clearly, it is impossible! When you leave school and enter the society, you Time belongs to your boss, your family, your exhausted life, but not to yourself. If you don’t face up to your heart now, do you want to face it when you are 30 years old when you are tired like a dog after work? You probably only have these few years that belong to you, and you can do something that makes you happy, so are you going to run away and waste it?"

Zhang Muqing lowered her head, shook her head very hard, and then clenched her fists.

Shen Yi asked, "What do you want to say?"

"I like to wear skirts, I'm not a pervert." Zhang Muqing closed her eyes, "But I'm afraid it won't help."

Shen Yi sighed, and lightly patted Zhang Muqing's shoulder with one hand: "Don't be afraid."

Wudaokou was still far away from Shen Yi's house, so he took a taxi back, the driver thought he had picked up a beautiful woman, and was about to strike up a conversation, when he heard the voice of the other party was a man.The driver was stunned on the spot, and had the urge to knock Shen Yi down, but now it is not allowed to refuse customers, he just has to bite the bullet and pull the deal.

Shen Yi could see the driver's embarrassed face from the rearview mirror, and he was used to these gazes.He even wanted to be sarcastic and disgust the driver by the way, but he didn't do it in the end.

He understands the truth, he can cross people, but he may not be able to cross himself.

It was already very late when Shen Yi arrived at the door of the house. He was cold and tired, and he just wanted to take a hot bath and go to sleep quickly after returning home. He took off his coat and put it on his arm in the elevator.

The elevator door rang, and he walked out slowly, only the crisp sound of high heels in the quiet corridor.

The voice-activated light didn't work very well. He stomped his foot hard, and the light suddenly turned on.

Li Jiaoyang squatted at the door, the light made him a little uncomfortable, he closed his eyes for a while, and after opening them, he could vaguely recognize the person in front of him.The first impression in my mind was where did the big beauty come from, and the second impression...

"Fuck me!" Li Jiaoyang woke up now, and froze in shock, "You, who are you!"

Shen Yi's eyes went dark, this was probably the end of the world.

"Why are you at my door." He gritted his molars, tried hard to restrain his emotions, and jumped out word by word, "Why, didn't you notify me!"

How could Li Jiaoyang understand Shen Yi's words, he just lost his mind and said: "Little bird? You you you you..." Isn't this true?His Shen Xiaoniao?That noble and glamorous Shen Yi who is full of guns?She even went home in women's clothing!This is too scary. Is Shen Yi crazy or is he crazy?Li Jiaoyang slapped himself hard, and he let out a "ow" in pain.Very good, I am not crazy.

So Shen Yi is crazy?God!

Among the two, Shen Yi calmed down faster, because the change in Li Jiaoyang's face was so beautiful and too glaring.These expressions and demeanors are not unfamiliar to Shen Yi at all, and they are a kind of panic and resistance that cannot be concealed at all.

There was even a hint of disgust.

For a moment, Shen Yi really wanted to be a villain.

He slowly walked in front of Li Jiaoyang, the oppression came, and Li Jiaoyang had to back away, so that his entire back was stuck against the door panel.There was not much difference in height between the two of them, but now Shen Yi was wearing high heels and was half a head taller than Li Jiaoyang. With a smile on his face, he leaned forward, pressed his right hand on the door next to Li Jiaoyang's ear, and bent his left leg slightly. It slid sideways against Li Jiaoyang's leg, encircling Li Jiaoyang in the middle.

Like a nasty high school big sister molesting a junior little brother.

It was too close, Shen Yi's exquisite face after makeup was infinitely magnified in front of Li Jiaoyang, it was beautiful and very confusing.Li Jiaoyang subconsciously swallowed his saliva, and moved his eyes down, from Shen Yi's flat chest to his thighs.

Between the socks and the hem of the skirt, there is an absolute area of ​​tenderness and allure.

After being outside for too long, a burst of heat suddenly came from the cold skin. Shen Yi looked down and saw that Li Jiaoyang's dog's paw was pressing on his thigh, trying to touch it up.

A loud male voice resounded through the sky, almost shaking the voice-activated lights from the first floor to the [-]th floor.

"Li Jiaoyang, are you fucking insane! I'm your father!" Shen Yi ran away, "Here! Me! Get lost!"