The Utopia of the Wastewood Prince

Chapter 65

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Li Jiaoyang sent Kongliu home, said goodbye to her at the gate of the community, and then walked back slowly by himself.He is not in a hurry to take a taxi home, but rather enjoys the early summer night in Beijing. Walking alone on the road is very comfortable, but his mood is a bit depressed.

It is rare for him to have such a depressed moment, and his heart is very disturbed. As for why, he is not very clear, it seems that there is a cloudy breath in his chest, and even the clear evening wind can't let it go.

Maybe he should find a chance to coax Shen Yi, although he can't come up with anything for a while, but he should have some sincerity.What Shen Yi said was right, there is no such thing as ignoring rewards in the world, he was negligent, and it was too wishful thinking.

Having figured out this joint, Li Jiaoyang planned to buy some gifts someday and go to Shen Yi's house to make an apology. He cherished this friend very much and didn't want the friendship between the two of them to be flawed.

The next day was the weekend, Li Jiaoyang wandered outside for a long time before deciding to buy a Dior dress for Shen Yi.He was afraid that his straight-male aesthetic would suddenly come online again, so after reporting Shen Yi's height and weight to the clerk, he confirmed again and again that it was a popular style and there would be no problem, so he swiped his card readily.

He rarely informs Shen Yi directly when he goes to find Shen Yi. After returning to China, Shen Yi doesn't have many friends. Unless necessary purchases or social activities on weekends, he usually stays at home, especially at night.When Li Jiaoyang came out of the shopping mall, it was already dark. He figured that it would be too late to go to Shen Yi for dinner, so he found another place to eat something to fill his stomach. I just went to Shen Yi's house.

And Shen Yi did have an appointment today, with Cao Ran.

The two had dinner together, and when they came back, they stopped by Shen Yi's house first. When Shen Yi got off the car, Cao Ran asked him, "It's still early, can I go up and have a glass of water?" They have been dating as friends for a long time. For a while, we feel good about each other.Cao Ran fell in love with Shen Yi. Although Shen Yi has some shortcomings in character, as long as he doesn't lose his temper, he is a perfect partner.So Cao Ran really wanted to go a step further, mustering up the courage to take the initiative to offer a hint invitation to Shen Yi.

Shen Yi doesn't dislike Cao Ran, rationally he also knows that Cao Ran is a good choice, but emotionally he has not yet entered the state so quickly.The main reason is that there is a shadow called "Li Jiaoyang" in his heart. He wants to break free, but when he breaks free, he feels the fear of being punished.Shen Yi blinked, decided to give it a try, nodded, and said, "Come on." Cao Ran happily got out of the car and went upstairs side by side with Shen Yi.

There is no graceful and ambiguous atmosphere when two people are in the same room, but a bit awkward.It was Shen Yi's first time dealing with this kind of situation, and it could be seen that Cao Ran was also very unfamiliar with it.Shen Yi suggested: "Why don't you watch TV for a while." Cao Ran nodded quickly.

The noisy TV somewhat diluted the stiff atmosphere. Shen Yi poured Cao Ran a glass of water. Cao Ran picked up the glass and drank it all. Then he looked at Shen Yi blankly and asked, "Can I have another glass?"

"Oh good." Shen Yi quickly poured another glass of water for Cao Ran, "It's hot in summer, drink more water."

"Well, yes." Cao Ran did it again.

Shen Yi was at a loss, and Cao Ran didn't know where to put his hands and feet. He sat upright, with his hands pressed on his knees, and his shoulders were tense. The courage he had just now had disappeared.Shen Yi is only a little better than him, he can lean on the sofa seemingly relaxed, after all, this is his house, and he is quite skilled in playing dead in a familiar environment.

"Are you hot? Do you want to turn on the air conditioner?" Shen Yi asked a rather uncertain question.He stood up before Cao Ran could answer, and Cao Ran grabbed Shen Yi's wrist: "No, no, no, I'm not hot, it's only been a few months."

He looked up at Shen Yi, and Shen Yi looked down at him. The two positions were one high and the other low. Cao Ran grabbed Shen Yi and did not let go, neither of them moved.A few seconds later, Cao Ran's hand slid down from Shen Yi's wrist, and instead gently held Shen Yi's hand.He lowered his head, said embarrassingly and somewhat determinedly: "We...I..." He didn't organize his words well, took a deep breath, and continued, "Shen Yi, what do you think of me?"

"...very good." Shen Yi replied.

"Frankly speaking, I like you quite a lot." Cao Ran said, "If you think I'm good too, can we end our friendship?" His meaning was very clear, to end the friendship and become a regular date. A pair of lovers.

Shen Yi lowered his eyes to look at Cao Ran. This guy just lowered his head, leaving himself a little bit of Xuan'er on his head.He really thinks that Cao Ran is pretty good, with scores above 85 in all aspects, anyone who asks to see it will think that this is a perfect choice, and he thinks so too.Shen Yi was able to draw such an accurate conclusion relying on reason, but what about his heart?When he met Cao Ran for the first time, he felt good, and he was willing to have a conversation with Cao Ran because Cao Ran made him feel close.He likes Cao Ran's enthusiastic, cheerful and youthful appearance, especially when he smiles, he has very cute canine teeth.

He didn't deny that he felt a little empathetic. Now that Cao Ran made the request, the problem that he had been deliberately ignoring before resurfaced.

Do you really want to give it a try?What will be the result?Can he get rid of Li Jiaoyang because of this?

Shen Yi slowly bent down to get close to Cao Ran, and put his mouth against Cao Ran's ear. Although Cao Ran couldn't see his expression, he felt that he must be blushing, as if blood was gushing out.

"I..." Just as Shen Yi uttered such a word, the doorbell rang.

It's not a happy thing to be interrupted. Cao Ran grabbed Shen Yi's hand and tried to get Shen Yi to finish speaking, but Shen Yi said, "Someone is here, I'll go and see first." He pulled himself away , walked to the door.

It was Li Jiaoyang who opened the door. Shen Yi was very surprised and asked, "Why are you here?"

"Your opening remarks really haven't changed for thousands of years." Li Jiaoyang hugged an exquisite box in his hand, first he smiled at Shen Yi, the smile was the same as before, and then said, "I'm here to apologize. Xiao Bird, I'm sorry, I didn't take into account the things I said before. It's actually my private matter, and I want to trouble you and brother Qiang. I thought about it for a long time and really don’t know what I can buy for you now, don’t you like wearing skirts? I don’t understand the ones you bought online, but I bought you a pair of Dior’s... Hey, can you let me in first? , It's strange to stand at the door and talk."

Shen Yi recovered from the shock, he never thought that Li Jiaoyang would do this to him.There is still a living person at home, so what's the point of asking Li Jiaoyang to go in?Shen Yi really wanted to look through the almanac right now to see what day it is today, and how it turned out to be the scene of a car rollover where which pot was not opened and which pot was lifted.

"I'm not angry, so don't think about it. I don't want your stuff either. You can return it. It's quite expensive." Shen Yi said, "Today...it's not convenient at home."

"What's inconvenient?" Li Jiaoyang likes to ask the bottom line as soon as he gets upright, "I don't want to dislike you for not cleaning the house, who are we with? What's wrong with you today? Why do you look so ugly, don't you?" Not feeling well, have you eaten tonight? Do you want me to take you to dinner first? You..." He chattered outside, looked through Shen Yi and saw the person behind him, he had the impression that it was Shen Yi that day His blind date, he remembered, was called Cao Ran.

Cao Ran also looked at Li Jiaoyang curiously, and smiled politely at him.It was at this moment that Li Jiaoyang grasped the point, let out a long "Oh", and immediately felt that this life was very stiff.Li Jiaoyang smiled obsequiously, and said: "Hey, what did you say earlier, then I... I won't bother you." He turned around decisively, and after taking two steps, he felt something was wrong, and turned back. "You keep the skirt. What I bought for you is yours. You can get it back." Li Jiaoyang stuffed the box into Shen Yi's arms sullenly. Now he stopped laughing, and whispered "I'm sorry to bother you." , ran away as if fleeing from a disaster.

Shen Yi did not stop Li Jiaoyang, but stood at the door and looked down at the box in his hand.

He didn't know what it meant, and he didn't know what language to use to describe his mood.He had the feeling of being caught and raped in bed, even if Li Jiaoyang had no idea what he was thinking, he still had the illusion that he was cheating mentally.Shen Yi was very sad, he looked at Li Jiaoyang's back in pain, and he realized that if the other party hadn't resolved it himself, it would be impossible for him to escape the sea of ​​suffering.

His feelings told him that he still liked Li Jiaoyang and disliked Cao Ran.There is no way to pretend, and there is no way to force it.But just now, he almost agreed to be with Cao Ran, and he might hurt a completely innocent person because of his selfishness.

The emotional setback made Shen Yi feel that he was no longer himself, and he stood there in a daze, his mind full of mistakes and running back.

"What's the matter?" Cao Ran put a hand on Shen Yi's shoulder and asked with concern.

"It's nothing, it's just that I've been outside for too long today, and I feel a little tired." Shen Yi turned to look at Cao Ran, "I'll take you back."

Cao Ran was stunned for a moment, and his surprised expression faded to bleak.He nodded, understood what Shen Yi meant, and said, "Okay."

Li Jiaoyang drove home, thinking about a lot of things on the way, he didn't deal with it no matter what he thought, when he got home, he frantically sent messages to Zhang Chunqiang without even taking a shower, launching brutal gossip attacks.

"Brother Qiang!" He shouted vigorously, "Big news!"

After a long time, Zhang Chunqiang appeared and asked him slowly, "What's the matter?"

Li Jiaoyang said: "Do you know that Shen Xiaoniao is in a relationship?"

"Hasn't he been making friends with comrades before?" Zhang Chunqiang was not surprised, "I know about this."

"No! He has a date now!" Li Jiaoyang exclaimed, "I bumped into them when I went to their house at night! It was the brother I met with him last time, and he was at Shen Xiaoniao's house. Just because he was there , Shen Xiaoniao didn't even let me in, I was so mad, do you think this counts as forgetting your friends?"

"...Not counting." Zhang Chunqiang was skeptical about Li Jiaoyang's description, "He has never been in a relationship. Isn't it good to find a boyfriend at such an old age? You just give him an excuse Friends hat, why don't you say you are out of season?"

"Hey, no, I didn't mean that." Li Jiaoyang shrank immediately, typing with a tangled expression, "I just think it's weird."

"Why is it strange?"

"I should be very happy that he found someone he likes. But the moment he didn't let me in, I felt extremely sad and felt like an outsider." Li Jiaoyang began to describe his mood at that time, "You Does it feel like that? It’s when your best friend suddenly falls in love, and you’re no longer inseparable from now on. He’ll spend more time with each other than with you. I’ll feel empty in my life A big piece, I don’t like it very much. It’s fine if everyone is safe and sound. To be honest, I don’t like his boyfriend very much, and I can’t say why. Hey Brother Qiang, tell me, in case something happens, Xiao Shen Will the bird choose a brother or a boyfriend?"

Zhang Chunqiang watched Li Jiaoyang shake off every sentence, and couldn't help sighing helplessly at the phone, and said, "How do you have such a strong brain power? Doesn't this mean nothing happened?"

"I have to get vaccinated in advance!" Li Jiaoyang sent a series of "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" after a while, and said, "I don't even have a girlfriend yet! Shen Xiaoniao didn't say to accompany me I!"

It's a bad account!As a person in the know, Zhang Chunqiang no longer knows which side to fight. She still doesn't understand why Shen Yi has to fall into the tragic feelings on his own, why can't he muster up the courage to give it a try.Li Jiaoyang is a straight man, how can you expect a straight man to suddenly open up and change his ways?It was really raining red in the sky.However, according to the current degree of Li Jiaoyang's dependence on Shen Yi, it would only make Shen Yi suffer more, and in the end he would still torture himself.Zhang Chunqiang really hoped that Shen Yi would think a little more about starting a new relationship, maybe he could find that the world is not so gloomy, and people don't just fall in love with one person in their life.

Let's live, how can we die?

"Brother Qiang." Li Jiaoyang sent another message, "What do you think I will do in the future?"

"What should I do?" Zhang Chunqiang was speechless, "Why do you sound like you are going to be a widow?"

"I'm in a panic." Li Jiaoyang said, "Maybe I won't be able to sleep well tonight. The main reason is that he won't let me in!" He started chattering about this matter again, "I've been shopping all day. He bought a skirt and sent it over, stood at the door of their house, said a few words, and then left, I really convinced myself!"

"That's right, don't act in Qiong Yao's drama." Zhang Chunqiang dug his ears, "Do you think you are the heroine of Qiong Yao? It's almost over, you will find a girlfriend later, and I will be left alone, and the two will even out .”

"Brother Qiang, I will not abandon you!" Li Jiaoyang said, "I will definitely not abandon my revolutionary comrades like Shen Xiaoniao!"

"...Please shut up."

Li Jiaoyang wailed with her for a long time before he died down, how could he still make it through the night?He closed his eyes and lay on the bed, always feeling uncomfortable.Friendship is pure and beautiful, but it is not selfless.It is as possessive as love, and it opens its arms completely to a very intimate person.

But when this person falls in love, gets married, and slowly withdraws from your life, the feeling cannot be expressed clearly in a single word, and you can only let time heal all the scars.

But isn't it time?When Li Jiaoyang thought about the life he was about to face next, he became so anxious that he couldn't sleep.