Even so, I still like you

Chapter 30 Everything About That Person①

The illness came like a mountain, and Shen Tongguang fell into a coma for a whole day and night before the fever subsided.I don't know what kind of bizarre dreams he was struggling in. When he had a high fever at night, the most repeated nonsense was "I'm sorry", and then he yelled for pain in a low voice.

Can it not hurt, Zhang Yuhang is almost out of temper by him.The back of Shen Tongguang's head was cut by something five centimeters long. Fortunately, the injury was not deep, so he didn't need to shave his hair.

Shen Tongguang woke up during several feedings, and looked at him unconsciously with flushed cheeks.He is very obedient, and he doesn't vomit out when he feels bitter, but his eyebrows are wrinkled, and he looks pitiful.When Zhang Yuhang thought of Shen Tongguang being so injured and coming to look for him in the rain, his anger seemed to be extinguished by the icy rain, and there was not even ash left.

But after thinking about it, Shen Tongguang was also overwhelming when they broke up last time, so he came to him directly.

He will soften his heart if he is confirmed, right?

It's just that Shen Tongguang is allowed to recuperate here temporarily out of humanitarianism, and he will be thrown out of the house immediately when he is well... There is nothing to tangle with.

After Zhang Yuhang thought about it, he covered his eyes with his arm and let out a long breath, then got up from the sofa bed, fed Jia, B, B, Ding, and then cooked porridge and read books.

An hour later, he brought the porridge into the bedroom. Shen Tongguang had already woken up, his eyes were open, but he looked very hazy. He turned his head to look at Zhang Yuhang, and said to himself, "Am I dreaming again?"

The corner of Zhang Yuhang's mouth twitched, he put down the tray, turned around and left.

It's not a dream!Thinking of this, Shen Tongguang quickly licked his dry lips, stood up and whispered, "Wait, don't leave..."

He became dizzy from such a movement of his head, and he couldn't help but fell back with a low cry, staring at him.

"Idiot, you? Don't move around." Zhang Yuhang felt that his body was out of the control of his brain, and he actually turned back. His tone was stiff, "You have a cut in your head, remember?"

head?

Shen Tongguang endured dizziness and vomiting to think back, probably he accidentally got it when he was fighting for the necklace with Qi Jingwen, and rubbed against a nail in the alley?

Zhang Yuhang saw that he was wandering in the sky, and couldn't help but bent his fingers and tapped on the table: "Speak."

"Hmm, um..." Shen Tongguang was taken aback, his eyelashes fluttering, "It should have hit a nail."

Zhang Yuhang's lips moved, and he suppressed his temper and said, "You eat the porridge first, and we can talk after eating."

A, B, B, Ding came into the room at this time, jumped on the bed and bowed to Tongguang.Shen Tongguang hugged her and touched her vigorously. He felt that the cat was getting fatter. Zhang Yuhang took good care of it.

It was not easy for Shen Tongguang to eat porridge. He barely ate half a bowl while lying on his side. Zhang Yuhang waited for 10 minutes and came in to have a look. He didn't say anything. He took the bowl to the kitchen, pulled up a chair and went back to the room.

As soon as he sat down on the bed, Shen Tongguang sneakily reached out to touch his lap, but he firmly pulled it away, and immediately showed a puppy wanting to be petted: "Is it okay to even touch it when you quarrel?" ?”

As he said that, he wanted to hold his finger again, Zhang Yuhang followed the same pattern, and opened it on the quilt, with a very cold expression on his face, not joking at all.

"I'm sorry." Shen Tongguang was really uncomfortable this time, and he lowered his head sadly, "What can I do to forgive me? I promise I won't fight back if I beat you or scold me."

Zhang Yuhang frowned: "It's a civilized society now, and I don't have the habit of bullying patients. I can solve it with my mouth."

"Hey?" Shen Tongguang blinked, "Is it okay?"

"..." Zhang Yuhang could not restrain himself from raising his voice, "Use, say, solve it!"

"Either talk about everything today, or don't look for me again after you leave." Zhang Yuhang looked at him with serious eyebrows, "I said I will wait for you patiently, waiting for you to find out your sincerity, not waiting for someone to do The spare tire. Don't say that I hurt you or anything, you were the one who stabbed me in the heart first."

Shen Tongguang lay there with a pale face holding the cat and looked at him, not speaking for a while.

Zhang Yuhang felt that he was betting at all, and it was a bet that he didn't know the odds of winning.Time passed by, and when he thought this time was over, Shen Tongguang suddenly bit his lip hard, and said in a light voice: "I went to elementary school and junior high school in the village, and I entered high school for the first time. county seat."

Most of the good memories seem to exist in summer, graduation, summer vacation, popsicles, light short-sleeves, cold beer, and barbecue stalls open until midnight. The colors of the memories are bright, rendering the golden sun.

Not so for Shen Tongguang.

In the summer of [-], at the beginning of high school, in Quantou Village, where the Chinese teacher also taught English, and he would help the family feed the chicken and grind the noodles when he came home from school in the afternoon, Shen Tongguang was the only one who could reach the admission score of the county's No. [-] Middle School s student.

His family couldn't afford the tuition and accommodation fees of thousands of dollars, so the grade director cherished his talents and reported the situation to him grade by grade in dialect. It was finally passed to the principal of the county's junior high school in the middle of the summer vacation.

After hanging up the phone, the 50-year-old educator sat in the boss's chair drinking tea and pondering for 5 minutes. He decided to go to the countryside to investigate in person.

Times have changed, now it’s hard to find a nobleman from a poor family with a lantern, one from any school can blow it for several years, and the bureau even sends out a pennant. Last year, No. [-] Middle School won one, and it’s still hanging at the school gate to show off its power, and don’t even look at it. Look at how rotten it is, from a distance it looks like a fat pig's torn red underpants...

Shen Tongguang's parents were the most nervous when they learned that the county principal was coming to inspect.Who is the principal? He is the big leader. When the leader comes, cigarettes and alcohol must be prepared, good food and good food must be set up on the table, and the money that is sweating in his hands must be spent outside. After all, there is only one child in their family.

On a scorching day in August, the big leader walked into the courtyard of Shen Tongguang's house accompanied by the teaching director, wearing a pair of sunglasses.

Shen Tongguang was standing there feeding the chickens, his limbs were as slender as those of a teenager, and his neck was red from the sun.Hearing the sound of footsteps, he raised his head and saw two big himself reflected in the mirror, and suddenly felt a little dizzy.

The headmaster asked him, "Do you like reading?"

Shen Tongguang said without hesitation: "I don't like it."

If it is possible, he hopes to lie in bed and read comic books for the rest of his life.He can't afford the villain books, but after finishing his homework, he can exchange two copies by borrowing Dongtou Ergou to copy them.

The dean became anxious immediately, and kept winking at him from behind.

The principal pushed the sunglasses: "Then you still take the high school entrance exam? Why don't you go directly to farming?"

Shen Tongguang pushed away a rooster that was desperately pecking at his toes: "I listen to my parents."

The principal chuckled: "Then your parents let you take the exam for A, B, and C. Will you pass the exam, or will you pass the exam?"

He was talking about the three most famous universities in the country, and there are not many in the county for many years, but Shen Tongguang just thought about it for a while, and his crooked eyebrows stretched out: "I can pass the exam."

Before, he had always been the most obedient kid from other people's family, but when he first entered the county high school, he was characterized as a different kind of "other side": a dialect with a strong accent, skin tanned, and bean sprouts that were so thin The figure, the quilt with big flowers, the iron kettle with a sense of age...

The poor feeling of struggling to survive all over his body immediately made people feel contemptuous that he could be trampled under his feet casually.

In fact, let Shen Tongguang say where the source is now, and he can't tell clearly. In short, it happened just like that.

It started when someone asked him to help fetch water between classes, and there were a few sloppy boys sitting in the last row—they said "thank you" with big smiles. He was a little flattered, because no one ever wanted to talk to him, He has always been the invisible man in the class.

Later, more and more people asked him to fetch water. There was only one water tank on the first floor, and no one wanted to waste time queuing up, especially after it was cold in winter.

All the people were smiling at him and saying thank you, but Shen Tongguang didn't know how to refuse.

At most, he had to pick up more than 30 bottles of water during a class break, and the people behind the line scolded him.

"You don't want to help them get water, do you?"

One day when he was doing self-study at night, another girl who stayed behind said this to him.

It took Shen Tongguang a while to realize that she was talking to him, and he raised his head blankly and said "ah".

The girl has a round face, is fair and clean, and has a long ponytail. She said: "They will get worse if you do this."

Shen Tongguang didn't dare to look at her, and stared at the upper of his cheap sneakers: "We are all...friends."

"Crap!" The girl slammed the eraser out of the window, "I'm not friends, they suck, don't resist."

After that, some time passed, and suddenly one day, the Liuliliuqi party members were shocked and annoyed to find that this skinny boy dared to refuse them.

It's not just fetching water, helping to buy cigarettes, and going to the cafeteria to grab a seat, he doesn't want to do any of them.

In fact, human memory is very limited, but the reason why the semi-propositional composition of "the first time XXX" has been repeated for so many years is because of the emotion of being surprised because it exceeds cognition.

It's not an elder, not a teacher, not even someone who knows you well, the first time you were stopped in the stinky men's toilet cubicle, slapped your hands, slapped your face, and pressed your cigarette butt, for Shen Tongguang, it was something he would never forget for the rest of his life memory.

How strange, Shen Tongguang thought in his ears, obviously to them, he was the primitive and vulgar savage, but he was the one who was beaten.

At that time, there was no mobile phone, and he lived alone in the dormitory during the holidays. Only during the summer and winter vacations would his parents send him a cash registered letter to buy a bus ticket and go home for four or five hours.

There is no one to confide in, and the whole portrait is enclosed in a small black box that sees no light—Xu Zhixing appeared as the god who saved him.

Xu Zhixing is one of the few teachers who does not stay in the office and watch dramas all the time when he is on duty for evening self-study. He will check whether there are boys hiding in the toilet and smoking, whether there are young couples hiding in the corner of the playground, and waiting for students who may have problems in the corridor. .

When he pulled Shen Tongguang out of the men's room that night, Shen Tongguang didn't even realize what happened.

Xu Zhixing led him through the quiet corridor, past the classrooms with lights on, and all the way to the office.He twisted his own hot towel and handed it to Shen Tongguang to wipe his face, then asked softly, "How long has it been?"

Moist hot air flowed into the fingers, Shen Tongguang stared at the toe of Xu Zhixing's leather shoes, and slowly shook his head.He gradually got used to this ostrich-like posture. He walked with his head down, looked at the other person's shoes when he was talking, and when he was beaten, he had to hold his head and try to bend down, bend, bend.

Xu Zhixing thought for a while: "What's your name?"

"...Shen Tongguang." After a while, there was a small voice.

"Shen Tongguang, you don't have to be afraid." Xu Zhixing's voice was deep and sweet, which suited him well, "Speak up, and the teacher will help you."

In fact, Shen Tongguang had seen him before. During the flag-raising ceremony, the girls behind him would always discuss in a low voice.He knew that this young man was a math teacher in the third year of high school, and his surname was Xu, but he couldn't tell the rest.

Shen Tongguang opened his mouth. He hadn't spoken to anyone for a long time, and he was even a little rusty: "I..."

Xu Zhixing sat down, looked up into his eyes, and nodded slightly encouragingly.

It's been a long time since anyone listened to him so seriously. Realizing this, Shen Tongguang felt his tongue was knotted.

After working hard for a long time, he finally said with difficulty: "...I don't remember."

As soon as the words fell, Xu Zhixing saw the tears of the child in front of him gushing out of his eyes as if they couldn't stop.

The author says:

There is still one more chapter of memories to end~ It’s not really a broken mirror~o(*^＠^*)o