1novels Chapter 32: Chapter 32
Chapter 32: Chapter 32
If every princess is like a star, the little princess may not be the brightest one, but she must be the most unique one.
I saw the little princess in front of that human's room again.
The hard-working fish maids have to clean the corridor regularly and regularly every day, each responsible for an area, and she who is in charge of the corridor of the human room often sees the little princess coming to Su.
"Hi, Princess Ariel." She said respectfully.
"Hello." Ariel responded as usual, and greeted cordially.
At this time, the door opened.She saw the human girl sticking her head out: "I'm sorry, I slept a little late yesterday, and I didn't get up very well in the morning. You should go have breakfast first."
Princess Ariel let out a "hmm".
Then I heard the door closing and a strange noise.
Unlike other rooms that will be renovated, human rooms have not been touched for a long time, so some problems will gradually occur over time, such as the sound insulation effect gradually getting worse.
But this is not a problem, because a dedicated maid has a necessary skill - pretending to be deaf and dumb. The main point of a maid's work has always been simple, talk less and do more.
So they kept many things in their hearts. For example, she felt that the relationship between the human girl and the little princess had gradually changed, and the number of times she saw the princess alone seemed to be increasing...
This maid has always felt that she doesn't know much about mermaids, so she never wants to comment.But if you had to ask her to comment on the recent behavior of this human girl, she would definitely say it was audacious.She didn't expect human beings to be so rare, so rare that they dared to deliberately let the noble little princess dove... She felt that the different little princess was too kind, why not punish this arrogant human being.At the same time, she is also puzzled by the explanation in the palace, why they still agree that the little princess treats the girl differently because she has no tail.You must know that at this time, even she has begun to understand that humans and mermaids are only different in the lower body.
Bang Bang Bang.
Simon's consulting room door rang.
"Is Grandpa Simon there?"
Ariel, who had breakfast alone, decided to ask Simon about Su's condition.
Simon, with his back to her, seemed to be in deep thought, not hearing her voice.
"Grandpa Simon?" Ariel called again.
"Ah, ah" Simon turned around.
"Did the conversation with Su go badly?"
Ariel sensed that he was unusual in distress.
Simon said embarrassingly: "It's true, alas, it's better not to ask."
"what happened?"
"She fell in love with a very difficult character."
"Troublesome? Why?"
"It's very unattainable, very dreamy, alas, even I don't think she can be accepted..."
"It doesn't match at all..." Ariel felt very sorry for Su.
"Uh, rather than saying they don't match, it's better to say that they can't match. Judging by Su's appearance, although she can't let go of her feelings immediately, as time goes by..."
"Grandpa Simon, what's his name? I'm going to meet him."
"Are you going to see him?" Simon was startled by Ariel's sudden proposal.
"kindness."
"What are you going to do?" Simon thought that the little princess really did not take an unusual path...
"Ask him what he thinks."
"Su said she didn't want to cause unnecessary trouble to the other party."
"Then Su's troubles are not troubles? Who can understand her sadness...I can't see her smile very much recently..." Ariel said very concerned.
"Little princess, this is not the place for you to go out."
"But I'm Su's friend, shouldn't a good friend do this?"
"Friendship also has places that you can't set foot in. If you don't make it right, it will be shattered. If that mermaid hates Su because of this, what will you do?"
Simon is going crazy, little princess, if you know that mermaid is you, you probably won't be able to say such bold words.
"How can there be such a mermaid? He hates each other because he is liked. Although Su didn't mention him to me, if he can make Su like him, it must be because he has been with him for a while. If the Su he sees is the same as what I see Su is equally excellent, I don't think he will hate Su."
Simon couldn't help sighing: "Love won't start because of excellence, but hate will exist because of some insignificant things. Little princess, everyone has different ideas, and feelings are actually very complicated things. Sue's period is very difficult. Ah, you'd better not make trouble for her..."
Simon continued: "Little princess, you are no longer dating Su because she is a human being, maybe that mermaid is too, but this is friendship. When the relationship changes, the things to consider will multiply. The conditions you care about will also become barriers. Let’s just say one thing. Have you forgotten that the life span of human beings is different from that of mermaids. The mermaid she loves can live to be 300 years old, but she doesn’t have such a long life span. Maybe you My grandmother forgot to tell you that we were both tortured by this problem at the beginning. It’s not that you can only be happy for a moment, but once you get it, you want to have it for a long time.”
"……All right."
Ariel was reluctantly persuaded by Simon for the time being, and agreed not to go to the mermaid Su Zhongyi for the time being.But when she left, she said that she must talk to Su and comfort her...
Simon's head hurt even more.
Little princess, you are almost the same age as Su, what advice can you give her?In your situation and your identity, you are just forcing her, telling her that she is cornered...
Frankly speaking, Simon really never thought of the person Su liked, and he still couldn't believe that name when he blurted it out.
But that's the truth, what can I do.
He rubbed his temples, his nerves still stiff from the truth.
"Rather than saying it's unbelievable, it's better to say it's extremely difficult..."
He has experienced a love that was judged by others, and because he and Su are close friends, even if he has a different view on Su's feelings, he doesn't want to put on a preaching face.
But ah, the difficulty of this relationship is not only facing others, but even the barrier between oneself and the other party is a problem.
As Simon thought about it, he couldn't help but smile wryly. Compared with Su's problems, his troubles back then were really nothing.
**
Su.
She is calling herself.
"Su."
Su heard that voice calling to him.
I didn't feel much when I heard my name before, I just thought, a new day is coming, the weather is nice today, I need to collect more pearls.
But I don’t know when it started, feelings that I have never had before appeared, I feel happy to be relied on, and I feel sweet when I am called by my name intimately.
Then the heart learns to throb.
"Su, wait for me."
"kindness."
As soon as he turned around, that beautiful face appeared in his eyes.When you can't see it, it will appear in your heart.
"The weather is fine, Ariel." Su heard herself say so.
The white clouds dotted in the bright sky, the seabed without wind and waves, leisurely and peaceful, the comfort without suffering will make people completely addicted.
"Well, I can see the whole sun today." She looked at the sky and smiled.
"Why do you like the sun?" Su knew he was asking the question knowingly.
"Because it's warm."
Well, because of the warmth.Although the seabed is beautiful, it lacks temperature.Also because of scarcity, so precious in every possible way.
"I remember your evaluation of the prince's statue also looks very warm, Ariel likes warm things."
But in fact, it’s not that they can bring warmth, the light passing through the sea has long been released from the temperature, and the dull statue of the prince is not as good as you said.Just because you look at them with warmth.
"Don't Su like it?"
"No, of course I like it." Finding a clean place, Su sat down.
A cold night, a cold heart, a flame, a ray of sunshine, all of these are precious.
Unlike you, my gaze does not have that warmth.Because I no longer pursue more warmth, I know the real feeling of coldness, that makes me stop, stop asking for more, and become a greedy and cowardly person.
"What kind of person does Su like?"
She also sat beside her, the blue gravel shone by the sun.
"the person I like--"
It is someone who is different from me, warmer than me, braver than me, and more determined than me.
A person who can understand the beauty of heaven and earth, is determined to chase the sun, will never stop, and will definitely be able to get the sky.
It's you.
Su woke up with a start.
There is no sunlight, no sky, and no flowers and plants. I am in a dark room with a carving knife lying on the ground next to me.
"You can fall asleep this way..." Su said mockingly.
Statues that can't be knifed at all can now continue.It just depends on what kind of mood you want to send it out, and where to put it.Think about it later.
She reached for the knife.
The knife slid to the other side.
"Are you here?" Su looked back.
Lilian was leaning against the wall behind her with a delicate expression.
Afterwards, Lilian often came uninvited. Sometimes I would see her from a distance in the garden, sometimes she would come to my room to chat with me, and sometimes she would not say anything. If you find out, turn around and leave.
"It's still early, why do you rush to do it in such a hurry?"
"I don't want to waste such mood and time."
"I can't understand." The carving knife passed Su Fei to Lilian's hand, and she held the short handle of the carving knife. "I can't understand such an unequal approach."
"Give it back to me before we talk." Su held out his hand.
"Is it because she looks beautiful enough?"
Lilian fiddled with the carving knife, and the moonlight shone on the back of the knife, shining brightly.
"Don't ask such boring questions." Su got up, came to her side, and took the carving knife away.
"... Bored?" Today's Lilian is not as aggressive as before.
"It's boring, you might as well tell me how your goad looks like."
"..." She was silent for a long time, "I didn't die anyway..."
"..."
"..."
"...Aren't you going back so late?"
"It's better to stay here..."
Su thought that she could talk to herself calmly, probably only today. Regarding the matter of the old witch, she was obviously not as calm as her mother.
Su could feel the depression she was trying to hide. Presumably Lilian and the old hag still had a lot of affection, no matter how clearly they knew it, it would be difficult to accept it.
"Would you like to eat something?" Su asked her, perhaps eating something could improve her mood a little.
Lilian shook her head, and she said, "I'll go out for a stroll, and I'll pick you up when the time comes."
The sea turtle rushed over when he heard the news. Su didn't have anyone else to accompany her, so he had to rely on Lilian to pick her up, otherwise he wouldn't be able to pass the Black Lagoon Labyrinth.
When she reached the door, Lily settled down for a while: "Your princess seems to have lingered outside the door for a long time."
"Why did you say it now!"
Su hurriedly opened the door, Ariel was already trapped in her own world, walking around, as if struggling with something, and didn't realize that the door had opened.
"Ariel." Su cleared his throat and called her.
"Huh?!" The startled response.
"Why are you walking up and down my door?" Sue asked.
"Well... let's go into the house first."
"Don't be too busy." Su pressed against the door, she hadn't covered the statue of Ariel, wouldn't it be exposed...
"En?" Ariel looked at Su.
"I need to tidy up my house."
"I remember the last time I came, your house was very clean."
"Messed up today."
"...I have seen it all, my statue."
"...how did you see..."
"It was the day of the banquet," Ariel said, "otherwise, why would the cup I was holding fall to the ground that day..."
Su had no choice but to obediently invite Ariel in.
"It really looks like me." Ariel squatted down and poked the statue.
"Ah, you can't poke the nose, it's easy to break." Su hurriedly protected the statue.
"When did this look like me?" Ariel asked.
"A long time ago, when you couldn't sleep and went out for a walk."
"Always felt……"
"Any questions?"
"Well..." Ariel stared at the statue, "I always think she is prettier than me."
Su couldn't help laughing: "Can I take it as a compliment to my carving skills?"
"En." Ariel looked at her and said, "It's been a long time since I saw Su's smile."
Su coughed covertly: "Is there any?"
"Yes." Ariel waved her hand, "Goodbye, Su, I'm going back."
"Is this gone?"
"kindness."
Su couldn't figure it out: "Ariel, what are you doing here?"
"Well, the plan has changed..." It seemed that he didn't want to say it.
Su thought for a while and asked, "Do you want to go for a walk?"
Ariel shook her head: "No need, Su should just go for a simple walk now."
Su was sharp: "Is this the reason for changing the plan?"
"..."
"Compared to the current me, will the original me be better..."
"no……"
"But I am, I like the original self, I don't like the current feeling very much, I can't control my mood, I am irritable and repetitive, I don't tell the truth, I don't know why."
"Su, you shouldn't say that about yourself."
"But it's true, isn't it?"
"... I really shouldn't have come, Grandpa Simon is right..."
Seeing Ariel's guilt-ridden expression, Su felt a burst of soreness: "It's none of your business, it's my problem from beginning to end...Whether you come or not, I've changed, everything will be like this..."
Ariel went on:
"So, during the whole process, Ariel didn't have to do anything, and couldn't do anything."
"...Ariel, you don't understand."
"Yes, Ariel doesn't understand. Sue, many people said that I was a child, and I think I know why now."
"No, it's not like that," said Sue.
"I'm glad Sue said that, but in fact Ariel doesn't meet the conditions for growing up. Grandma said that when she grows up, she will secretly hold a lot of things in her heart, and there will be secrets that she doesn't want to tell others. I will no longer be so serious about every thought, I will get used to losing, I will learn to give up. My heart will also become that others will fall in love with me, and I will fall in love with others. But now Ariel still does not understand what love is , What should love feel like, Ariel actually doesn't know what it feels like to like someone."
She smiled and said:
"But Su understands that you have grown up and are ahead of Ariel. Ariel is no longer able to stand by your side."
Sue was very sad.
Her words and her smile made Su sad.
No, that's not the case, Su denied it again in his heart.
What does it mean to grow up? Su understands that this is definitely not the case for him.Only children like people and are at a loss. Compared with Ariel's calmness, compared to her always choosing to face it, and her feeling of being indifferent, choosing to escape is the childishness that does not want to grow up...
But how to tell her?Such unexpected feelings, such a powerless and incompetent self, Su is afraid of. What she wants to expose is not only this feeling, but also the changes that gradually surfaced in the relationship. These reveal more than just her own liking.
So, in the end, I just heard her take care of herself.
"Although Ariel can't do anything, she will support any decision you make. No matter what, you must be happy."
Su didn't close the door for a long time, the dark sea today was in the same mood as hers.
Hearing her say this to herself, covering the facts, the glass of self-deception was shattered by this feeling.
Su thought, the problem was never my growth, but yours.
Her hand was holding on to the door frame, and the cold material was sticking to her hand and her heart, bringing a cold pain.
In fact, I have been walking in the same place all the time, and I can no longer catch up with Ariel...
She has been growing at an incredible rate, and her relationship with her as caregiver and caretaker has begun to falter.
Su understood that now he had to wake up from the illusion of self-construction.
In fact, the person I have been relying on is myself, and I have been relying on her all the time.
The self who has lost her family, the self who has lost her purpose in life, enjoys the connection she makes as a caregiver and the fulfillment of her needs.
When she learns to understand, when she understands being strong, when she tries to achieve something by herself like a mature adult.
She will be able to look at herself.
Then the secret love can no longer find excuses to be put in the 'needed' bag.
She will be stripped of herself, fully mature.
Slowly catch up.
When she no longer needed herself, when she was about to leave herself completely, and had to express this feeling in order to keep her.
That's when it's over.