very close to the clouds

Chapter 83 Let's Break Up

"Are you ok?"

"Are you ok?"

The moment he said the same thing, Shen Yanbai felt that the tight string in his heart suddenly loosened, and even his body that was standing stiffly relaxed, leaning back and leaning against the door panel.

"It's okay." Shen Yanbai replied, "What about you?"

"I've been a little busy these two days," Jiang Zhongyu's tone also sounded exhausted. Shen Yanbai didn't know what happened to him, but his intuition should be something bad. He only hesitated, and Jiang Zhongyu continued, "I'm afraid I won't be able to contact you all the time during this time."

Shen Yanbai pursed his lips and asked him, "Can I come to you?"

He wanted to give him a surprise, but right now he is surrounded by paparazzi, if he rushes to Hoh Xil to surprise him, it may drag Jiang Zhongyu down, after all, those paparazzi are also very interested in Jiang Zhongyu now.

Shen Yanbai didn't know if Jiang Zhongyu had read the news on the Internet, but judging from his current tone, he probably didn't have time.

Shen Yanbai hesitated whether to directly ask him about his imprisonment.

Jiang Zhongyu paused slightly, and then said, "Xiao Shen, it's not convenient for me right now."

"What's the important thing for you?" The disappointment was greater than those who were curious about Jiang Zhongyu, Shen Yanbai picked the small advertisement on the door panel with his hands, and his voice lowered several degrees, "I can help with it. "

"You can't help." Jiang Zhongyu sighed and said, "Xiao Shen, I read Weibo."

Shen Yanbai was taken aback for a moment.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you a lot of things, those things are true," Jiang Zhongyu seemed to change to a quieter place and continued, "At first I wanted to tell you... but I couldn't open my mouth anyway, You seem to mind. Emotionally, I'm like a coward, and I dare not take a step forward even if I die."

Shen Yanbai pursed his lips even tighter, he had already removed more than half of the small advertisement on the door panel.

Jiang Zhongyu said: "If you mind... we can calm down for a while, you think it through."

With a "crash", the remaining half of the small advertisement was torn off by Shen Yanbai, and there was still some old glue on the door panel, sticking on the white and clean place like a sore.

Shen Yanbai heard his own voice almost numbly saying: "Are you breaking up with me?"

"That's not what I mean," Jiang Zhongyu explained, "It's just that there is a huge gap between you and me, and now your work and my life are in a mess. Even if we want to get together, we still face difficulties. You are in Shanghai and I am in Hoh Xil."

"Aren't you already planning to come to Shanghai to accompany me?" Shen Yanbai said, "You have even found a job in Shanghai that suits you."

Jiang Zhongyu was silent for a moment, and then said: "Xiao Shen, I am different from you."

It seems to be different.

Shen Yanbai thought of the road he drove to the airport after leaving Hoh Xil.The setting sun in the distance rises slowly, illuminating the flat land brightly.At that time they were just friends, he told himself rationally that Jiang Zhongyu was more suitable for the open and flat Hoh Xil, rather than looking for a way out in the city of Shanghai.

Obviously at that time he could be very rational, but now he can't.

Right now, he can't give up the career he worked hard in Shanghai, and Jiang Zhongyu can't give up Hoh Xil either.

In fact, he had thought about this matter a long time ago, but he just kept pretending that the problem didn't exist.Jiang Zhongyu's coming to Shanghai to find him was purely a stopgap measure, and he would return to Hoh Xil sooner or later.

This day came too fast.

Shen Yanbai leaned against the door panel and looked at the incandescent lamp above his head. It was especially like the beam of sunlight seen in the Crescent Lake in Dunhuang. It scorched his body hotly, but what he brought to people was not light, but light. Extraordinary, unbearable scalding.

"All right." Shen Yanbai said indifferently, "Then let's break up."

"Xiao Shen..."

Shen Yanbai disconnected the phone.

He had never thought of himself as a love brain before, but in this relationship with Jiang Zhongyu, he had compromised too many times, and he had reached his limit.Why should he be led by the nose by Jiang Zhongyu?

Even if it is temperamental, it is also the most sensible decision.At least for now, it is the most sensible.

"How about it?"

Cang La's voice came from behind, Jiang Zhongyu held the phone in a daze, and didn't recover for a long time.

Cang La patted him on the shoulder and asked him: "Have you explained everything to Bai Bai? You must not misunderstand such a big matter."

"Well." Jiang Zhongyu skipped over vaguely and asked her, "It's nothing, don't worry. How is my mother?"

"The mood is fairly stable," Cang La frowned and said, "I really think she should see a psychiatrist. You discovered her suicide right now. What if she wasn't discovered? The left wrist last time, the right wrist this time." Wrist, it really feels asymmetrical."

Jiang Zhongyu pinched his eyebrows wearily, let out a foul breath, and said, "She refuses to leave here, there is no way to take her to see a psychiatrist."

Cang La said "Hey": "Auntie is really..."

Ye Jing has been in this vicious circle for many years, since Jiang Zhongyu's father passed away.

Her emotions were breaking down day after day, and she always felt that her husband was still alive, waiting for her to take care of him, ten years as a day, so she never left Suojia.It's just that she never showed any self-harm behavior before, and this time she must have been stimulated by something, so she threatened Jiang Zhongyu in this way.

Jiang Zhongyu stood outside the ward, opened the door a little and took a look in. Ye Jing had already taken the medicine and fell asleep, exhaustion was written on her pale and cold face, she lost a lot of blood, and she didn't know how long it would take to recover Make it up.

Ye Jing's emotions are about to collapse at any time now, it is impossible for him to leave here.So even though he knew how painful Shen Yanbai would be right now, he couldn't go to him, and he didn't want to involve Shen Yanbai in his own troubles.

There are enough bad things in Shen Yanbai's life, he doesn't want to hurt the other party.

Jiang Zhongyu didn't even care about being sad, he had too much to do.

It was snowing outside, the snow was heavy, the ground was covered with a thick layer, and there were footprints when one stepped on it, and the body seemed to sink into the boundless darkness.Jiang Zhongyu took a break from his busy schedule, hid under a dead tree and smoked a whole cigarette, his thoughts were numb by nicotine for a moment, he couldn't help but think of the temperature of Shen Yanbai's palm sometime a few months ago.

Shen Yanbai was thousands of miles away, he couldn't even kiss him.

But he misses him so much.

Jiang Zhongyu took out his mobile phone and called Shen Yanbai. After two beeps, Shen Yanbai hung up.

Only a cold female voice remained on the phone, reminding him how heartbroken the words he said to the other party in the afternoon.

The author says:

Let's fight for the speed of light and reconciliation